i did something really dumb this week that i'm absolutely kicking myself over. in some act of computer-related idiocy, i managed to throw away an entire volume of my journal
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Ugh. I feel your pain, really. I have a similar volume that is locked on my dead hard drive. I did NOT have a backup, but I reassure myself that when I can afford the time, energy, and cash that I can retrieve it. I also include various notes from other people in this file, like copies of emails and so forth. It is a major Marsh mishmash. (A little morning alliteration for ya.)
And -- from what I can tell purely from our online interactions -- you are anything but an idiot.
My absolute sympathies, that sucks. I'm afraid I'm a bit of a compulsive journaler, I've been keeping one since I was old enough to write. There are, literally, boxes of notebooks from high school and college. It's all on paper, not on a harddrive, so one fire, flood or misplaced "cleaning" drive on someone else's part could wipe out the stash. Do you ever re-read your old journals, or get material out of them for projects, or anything like that? I mean, are they of any earthly use? I often wonder why I bother, and the only conclusion I've reached is that it is a form of therapy/self-medication for me. I do write down ideas and such, but the number of times I refer back to the old notebooks is few. And I worry, sometimes, about people being hurt if I were to die and they were to read my unfiltered garbage thoughts and deeds... My only hope there is that my handwriting is too horrible to ever be deciphered.
I do read them periodically. Part of why I do it is to write down all of the ideas that come to mind day to day.
I'm not terribly worried what people would think after I'm dead.
I am compulsive too, but it's good for me. Part of why that upset me is that it's arguably my most prized possession (save for these two fuzzy black things.)
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And -- from what I can tell purely from our online interactions -- you are anything but an idiot.
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I'm afraid I'm a bit of a compulsive journaler, I've been keeping one since I was old enough to write. There are, literally, boxes of notebooks from high school and college. It's all on paper, not on a harddrive, so one fire, flood or misplaced "cleaning" drive on someone else's part could wipe out the stash.
Do you ever re-read your old journals, or get material out of them for projects, or anything like that? I mean, are they of any earthly use? I often wonder why I bother, and the only conclusion I've reached is that it is a form of therapy/self-medication for me. I do write down ideas and such, but the number of times I refer back to the old notebooks is few.
And I worry, sometimes, about people being hurt if I were to die and they were to read my unfiltered garbage thoughts and deeds...
My only hope there is that my handwriting is too horrible to ever be deciphered.
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I'm not terribly worried what people would think after I'm dead.
I am compulsive too, but it's good for me. Part of why that upset me is that it's arguably my most prized possession (save for these two fuzzy black things.)
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