a phone call from a wonderful woman in oregon. i hate missed calls ( Read more... )

spending lots of time with rob. which is a nice thing. I have fun. it feels good. for the most part.
sinking again, though. this happens.
waiting for school to start. waiting to be able to explain that yes, the nightmares are coming back. yes, the longing for perfection didn't really go away.
everything's a version of something else.

I know I shouldn't be updating this. I shouldn't be writing these words right now. There are two people who could read them, who I really don't want to deal with the out come. I'm spending the weekend in Portland. At first I didn't know why I was doing it, why I let it happen, but now I look and...it feels good. It feels right. so many ( Read more... )

I'm sunburnt. and it hurts. and a boy is going to put lotion on me to make it all better. and I'm tired.
I taste like the ocean.
I love fashion.
I love my cousins aly and sarah. and my aunt victoria.
victoria: what's your favorite rap tune?
sarah: little bit.
hehe, the girl is like 11... it's hot.

i'm listening to snow patrol even though it makes me sad.
i'm thinking of all the moments.
all the supid things I said.
how i knew all along, but it didn't make a difference.
how i lied to you the other night.
how i think you know it.

I don't want to lie. I can't tell the truth. So it's over.

Probably won't be updating here all that often, for very personal reasons. If you care enough to know what's going on email me, or call me. Leave me a message on here and I'll get back to you. Just too many secrets, and too many lies.

went to benjamin's last night. he called me up after I got back from the beach and we decided that ghost world the movie to watch. and it was. I hadn't seen it in a while, and it made me quite happy to watch it. Then we watched some music show and I giggled at the host cause he was so lame. I got home later than I intended, since I have work ( Read more... )

went to lunch with chuck. it was actually nice. very nice. it was cool to sit and talk and be okay. he thinks I should talk to kurt about moving in. the rent is kind of higher than I was hoping (425+ utilities), but the apartment is big, and I like the neighborhood. I forgot to get kurt's number ( Read more... )

kelsea, tonight I thought of you. Need I say more?
don't stop, keep going.

yesterday was good. I'm so glad I decided to go to my sisters. Wedding Crashers is seriously the funniest movie ever. I loved it. Seeing Cioffi was awesome. I can't wait til August when Laura, Jess, Nicole and I go out for a fancy dinner :) It's going to be a blast. (Nicole and Jess are insane... like Laura and I aren't)... Waking up this ( Read more... )