Finding You Chapter 41
Title: Finding You
Chapters: 41/?
Pairing: HyukHae, Past!Kihae
Disclaimer: I don’t own them, only the weird plot.
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Kibum comes home to check on Donghae.
Note: This is written from Donghae and Kibum’s point of view.
Donghae’s P.O.V.
After Kibum had left to go to the Hospital my room felt like it was spinning. The dizzying sickness and pounding in my head made me clutch the sheets. My vision was blacking at the edges and I felt like I was floating. I buried myself under the comforter until the blackness took over and I passed out.
I was woken up by soft nudges on the shoulder. I didn’t know how long I was passed out, and it took my mind a minute to realize where I was. But eventually I pocked my head out of my comforter, only to be met by the concerned eyes of Kibum.
“Are you okay?” he asked and I gave him a smile as a reply
“You need to take more medicine” he said offering me the pills, and I frowned. I hated taking pills and it didn’t help that my throat felt like I had swallowed a handful of razor blades.
Eventually-although I did put up a good fight-he managed to get the pills into my mouth and handed me a cup of water. I swallowed the pills with difficulty because of my sore throat.
He laid me back down on the bed and placed a hand on my forehead
“You’re running a temperature” he informed and I would have rolled my eyes, if it wasn’t for the fact that I had a splitting headache, which managed to increase when my cell phone rang.
“I got it” Kibum said helpfully and I lay there as I listened to him speak
“Hello?” he asked into the receiver of the phone
All of a sudden the room got unbearably quiet. Something was wrong; I could feel it in my heart, in my soul.
With much difficulty I managed to pull myself up into a sitting position. But the look on Kibum’s face made me regret ever sitting up.
He had tears in his eyes and when our eye’s lock he looked away
“W-When?” he asked with a shaky voice, it wasn’t like him at all.
I reached out my hand to him and he flinched when my fingers touched his shoulder.
“I-I’ll t-tell him” Kibum said before he ended the call and turned to look at me.
My eyes were pleading because I couldn’t speak. Something was wrong, very very wrong.
Kibum’s eyes filled with tears and I felt mine prick up at just the sight. NO! I screamed in my head, I knew what was coming.
“H-Hyukjae” Kibum started and I shook my head violently, ignoring the throbbing pain in my head
“No” I managed to say but it sounded hoarse and the word stung my throat as it came out of my mouth “N-No”
Kibum grabbed hold of my shoulders, and I knew this was it. This was the end of my reason for living.
“Hyukjae” Kibum started again and I felt the tears fall at an impossible speed from my eyes “he’s gone” Kibum said, his tears finally falling from his eyes “he’s dead”
I pushed him away with all the force I possessed “NO” I screamed, ignoring the burning in my throat “LIAR” I yelled
He tried to grab hold of my shoulders but I rolled off the bed and tried to stand up, but the room was spinning. I fell onto the floor as I tried to make a run for the door.
Kibum was standing behind me but every time he tried to touch me I flinched and shrugged off his touch. It wasn’t the touch I wanted to feel, it wasn’t the touch I needed to feel. I needed Hyukjae, I only wanted Hyukjae.
I stood up using the last of the strength I possessed, I would go to Hospital, I would go to the Hyukjae. It would all be a cruel joke that Kibum was playing on me, he was lying. Hyukjae was alive. He had to be alive.
“He’s gone” Kibum said when I fell to the floor again and this time I knew, I knew he wasn’t lying.
“No” I said quietly “please” I begged “please no”
Kibum fell to his knees and embraced me in his arms, but it felt so foreign to me, there was no point to anything anymore
“HYUKJAE” I screamed out with all the agony and pain I felt in my heart.
Kibum’s P.O.V.
“HYUKJAE” Donghae screamed out in agony, he was tossing and turning in the sheets.
Ryeowook ran over towards Donghae’s bed and shook his body gently.
“Wake up” he pleaded. I was in a state of shock; I’d never seen Donghae like this. I couldn’t move. Just the sight of him broke my heart. I couldn’t move or speak, all I could do is watch helplessly as Ryeowook tried to wake up the screaming boy.
“Wake up” Ryeowook yelled as he lightly slapped Donghae’s cheek.
Donghae’s eyes shot open, and the pain and fear that could be seen in them made both myself and Ryeowook start to cry.
“H-H-Hyuk-Hyukjae?” Donghae asked through violent sobs “d-d-dead?”
“No” Ryeowook cooed “he’s alive, he’s alive” he kept repeating as he rocked Donghae back and forth.
Donghae continued to cry, he cried for 20 minutes straight until it was too much for him and he passed out from stress.
Ryeowook laid Donghae back on the bed and covered him with a blanket before he kissed him on the forehead “Hyukjae’s alive” he whispered to Donghae’s sleeping body before he stood up and walked over to me.
He had tears in his eyes, but so did I.
He took my hand and pulled me out of the room, my eyes never left Donghae’s sleeping form until Ryeowook shut his door.
“I…” I couldn’t speak, I couldn’t even think of the words to say.
Ryeowook nodded as if he understood what I was trying to say, even though I myself had no idea what that was.
We stood in the hall for a minute before I couldn’t stand the silence anymore
“This is bad…I…he…how?” I couldn’t form a coherent sentence but Ryeowook seem to understand everything. He nodded his head and pulled me back down the stairs.
“He can’t be left alone” Ryeowook said and I nodded my head in agreement
“I-I can’t” I said. It couldn’t be me, I couldn’t even move when I saw Donghae like that, how would I be able to help him?
“O-Okay” Ryeowook said and I was thankful he didn’t ask why or judge me “I’ll call Yesung and then we’ll watch him together, okay?”
I nodded my head and watched him dial Yesung
“Yesung?” he said
“We can’t leave Donghae alone”
“It’s bad; we need to stay with him”
“I just wanted to tell you I’ll be over Donghae’s and that you don’t have to pick me up from school”
“I know” he said after a while
“Okay”
“I love you too”
“Bye” and then he hung up and turned to me
“He’s so overprotective when it comes to school” Ryeowook said, he was just trying to start some conversation but I couldn’t speak so I just nodded my head.
“They are going to come over as soon as their class ends” Ryeowook informed after the silence was drowning us. I nodded my head, I had a feeling that’s what they would want to do; they really cared about Donghae.
“D-Do you want some tea?” I asked and Ryeowook nodded, so I walked into the kitchen and started to make it.
When it had finished we sat at the kitchen table in silence sipping on the hot tea.
15 minutes passed in complete silence, only to be shattered by the sound of a door bell ringing. I stood up and walked over towards the door and opened it. It was Yesung and the people from the hospital.
“I thought you said you’d come after your class” Ryeowook said from behind me.
“He got impatient” a cute black haired man said from beside Yesung.
“Come in” I offered and moved aside so they had room to step inside.
“Thank you” Yesung said before he and all the other’s walked inside. Yesung instantly walked over towards Ryeowook and embraced him.
I saw as Ryeowook brought his arms around Yesung and pulled him impossible close, it was a hard day and I smiled at the fact that Ryeowook had someone to comfort him.
Once everyone was inside Yesung turned towards me with Ryeowook still cradled in his arms “I guess we should probably introduce you to them” he said pointing to the group of people I had no acquaintance with.
I nodded my head and he started “This is Ryeowook and I’m Yesung” he said and I raised an eyebrow at him, was he trying to be funny?
“Clearly he knows you already idiot” a tall skinny man retorted and I smiled.
“Right” Yesung said “sorry…that was Kyuhyun” he said, referring to the man who just insulted him “and the guy next to him is his boyfriend Sungmin” I bowed at the two older men
“It’s nice to meet you” I said and they nodded
“This is Leeteuk” he said pointing to the man who ran after Donghae last night “and that guy behind him is his boyfriend, Kangin” I bowed at them as well and Yesung continued with the introductions
“That is Junsu” he said pointing to a cute man “and two people I don’t know” he said with a smile and I just looked at him and nodded slowly “I’m Yoochun” the tall handsome man next to Junsu said “Junsu’s boyfriend and this is Changmin” he said referring to a boy standing next to him “Junsu’s brother”
I bowed and said “nice to meet you”
I tried to ignore the hammering in my heart when my eyes locked with Changmin’s, but it was becoming increasingly harder to do.
“Uhh…” I said trying to take my eyes off of Changmin, but I couldn’t, his present’s was calming me.
He calmed me so much I didn’t even flinch when Donghae screamed out in anguish.
“NOOO” the scream could be heard clearly and everyone in the room panicked
“What was that?” Yesung said and Ryeowook’s eyes locked onto mine and I shook my head, and he seemed to understand as he started to run upstairs, followed by Leeteuk, Yesung, Sungmin, Kyuhyun, Kangin, Junsu, and Yoochun.
Effectively leaving Changmin alone with me downstairs
We stood there staring into each other’s eyes for longer than necessary, until Changmin smiled at me and I turned away and walked into the kitchen.
I didn’t say anything when he fallowed me in there; I just made a cup of tea and handed it to him. He smiled at me and sat down at the table, I sat next to him.
We sat in silence for a few minutes until I heard the cry’s “Donghae where are you going?” they were yelling and I stood up to see Donghae running down the stairs.
I ran over to him and he collapsed into my arms, he looked up at me and begged “p-please?” I knew what he wanted so I helped him to his feet and tried to get him out of the house.
I wasn’t strong enough to support his weight and was happy when Changmin came behind us and picked Donghae up bridal style. He looked into my eyes and I gave him a weak smile before I started to walk towards the door, Changmin fallowing.
“Where are you going?” Leeteuk asked and I turned to him and said “It’s okay…we’ll be back soon” before the three of us walked out the door.
I led Changmin towards my car, and he placed Donghae in the back seat
“Do you want me to come with you?” he said when he shut the door of the car, I just looked at him and nodded my head. He smiled and climbed into the passenger seat. I don’t know why but I just wanted him to be with me.
I stood there for a second before I walked over to the driver seat and climbed in.
I started the engine and sighed closing my eyes, only opening them when I felt a hand holding mine.
I turned to see Changmin holding my hand and I smiled at him before I started to drive, I did not pull my hand away.
Sorry about taking so long to update this, and also sorry about how dark and sad this was. I’m hopped up on sugar, and when I eat too much sugar all my ideas are sad and scary XD
The next chapter will be about what happened in Donghae’s room when Kibum and Changmin were downstairs :D
Thank you for reading <3