Finding You Chapter 37
Title: Finding You
Chapters: 37/?
Pairing: HyukHae, Past!Kihae, YeWook
Disclaimer: I don’t own them, only the weird plot.
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Ryeowook's prom night
Note: This is written from Ryeowook’s point of view.
Ryeowook’s P.O.V.
Prom Night
This was going to be the greatest night of my life. I had dreamed of going to prom with Yesung since I first met him. It was love at first sight; I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him from the very first time I laid eyes on him.
***Flashback***
“Hyukkie why are you making your poor little cousin help you move?” Sungmin asked and I smiled up at him, at least he cared enough about me to worry, unlike my so called cousin Hyukjae.
“Wookie’s fine” Hyukjae said, completely ignoring the glare I was sending at him “Plus he’s the one who offered to help” technically that was true but I didn’t expect to be spending my Saturday carrying heavy boxes up multiple flights of stairs.
“He’s just a kid” Sungmin argued and I felt deflated, everyone always saw me as a kid, well except Hyukjae who only saw me as someone he could get to do anything for him. It was true, I loved doing things for my Hyung, but this was pushing it.
I let out a sigh as I shifted the box in my arms, trying to get a better grasp of it. The box shifted to an awkward position and I felt myself falling backwards. I let out a squeak and closed my eyes shut, waiting for the pain to come when I fell down the stairs, but it never came. I didn’t fall, in fact I wasn’t moving at all and when I opened my eyes I saw arms wrapped around me, holding both myself and the box in place.
“Are you okay?” asked the person who was holding me from behind. His voice was deep and beautiful; it sent shivers down my spine.
“I-I think so” I said a little unsure. I was scared from almost falling and the arms wrapped around my waist were sending waves of electricity through my body.
“Here” Said the man “let me help you” then he took the box and helped me to stand on my own “so where are you taking it?” he asked and when I turned around to thank him my eyes laid sight on the most handsome man I’d ever met.
“I-I-I…” I stuttered, I think I’m in love.
***End of Flashback***
I blushed at the memory, I couldn’t believe it, it took two years for Yesung and me to get together. I had my theories for why it took so long for Yesung to notice my infatuation with him. One of them was the fact that Yesung could be completely oblivious, the other was because of Hyukjae.
I knew Hyukjae thought the age gap between us was too large, but love knew no age. I was thankful when Donghae came along, he changed Hyukjae’s mind about the whole age thing and the love at first sight issue. He had said there was no such thing as love at first sight, but when he met Donghae he changed his tune. Donghae changed Hyukjae.
I smiled as I thought about how much Hyukjae has changed. Hyukjae used to be miserable; he used to fall in and out of love so quickly that he would damage his life, and then there was the whole Junsu issue. But when Donghae had came into his life Hyukjae changed into the great person I knew he was on the inside. Donghae had made Hyukjae a better person.
RING
I was pulled from my thoughts by the sound of my cell phone ringing. I went to pick it up and smiled as I saw the caller I.D. it was Yesung.
“Hello” I called in a cheery voice.
“Wookie” Yesung said but it didn’t sound like his usual voice, it sounded like it was laced with sadness.
“Sungie what’s wrong?” I asked fearing something bad had happened to the love of my life.
“It’s Hyukjae, he was in an accident” Yesung said
“W-What?” I asked shocked.
“Hyukjae, he…he was in a car accident” Yesung said trying to sound brave and calm for me but I could hear the sadness and the fear in his voice.
“W-wha…” I wanted to say more but there was a lump forming in my throat. I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes, and it was getting harder to breathe.
“I’m coming to get you” Yesung said “I’ll be there soon, just stay on the line” he said with a little bit of panic in his voice.
I nodded my head even though I knew he couldn’t see it, but I couldn’t speak.
I sat in the middle of the room with the phone pressed against my ear, listening to Yesung’s occasional words of comfort. I don’t know how long I sat there or how many tears had fallen down my cheeks.
I don’t know how or when Yesung got to my house but one minute I was alone and the next I was cradled securely in Yesung’s embrace.
He was whispering words of comfort into my ear and I tightened my grip on him, all I could think was thank god it wasn’t Yesung. I don’t know what I would have done if it was Yesung. I felt guilty to think like that but at that very moment I didn’t care. If the love of my life was in a car accident I would die, it would be the worst thing imaginable.
“Donghae” I said as the realization of my thoughts hit me, how must Donghae feel right now? I couldn’t even imagine what I’d do if it was Yesung, but it was Donghae’s reality. How was he handling it? Who was there to comfort him? How could anything comfort him?
“We haven’t called him yet” Sungmin said. Had he been here the whole time?
“Why?” I asked a little angry, I know if I was the last one to know my lover was in an accident I would be very angry “We need to tell him”
“We don’t have his number” Said Leeteuk, He was here too?
“Oh” I said a little embarrassed from snapping at them, of course they wouldn’t have his number they didn’t even know him “it’s in my phone” I said clutching the object in my hand.
I couldn’t call him. I knew it should be me because I was his friend but I couldn’t get myself to dial. How could I break the news to him? How could I be the one to ruin what was supposed to be the perfect night? Prom was all Donghae had been talking about all week, he was so excited. How could I ruin that?
“I’ll do it” Yesung offered, taking the phone out of my hand. I looked into his eyes and the tears fell harder. What would I do without him?
He found the number in my contacts and pressed the talk button, I wrapped my arms around his neck as he started to talk. I couldn’t hold in the tears.
“Hello” he said “Oh…um is Donghae there?” Donghae didn’t answer the phone? I looked up at the clock and realized how late Hyukjae would have been and I felt bad that maybe Donghae thought Hyukjae had stood him up.
I tightened my hold on Yesung as I listened to him explain what had happened to Hyukjae. Why was this happening?
After Yesung had hung up the phone he wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me into a tighter hug. I was thankful, I needed to feel his presence, I needed to feel him.
“We should go to the Hospital” Leetuek said breaking the silence that was lingering in the air.
I let Yesung pull me up and walked with him towards the car, never breaking my hold on him. He opened his umbrella and led me to the car.
The whole ride to the Hospital was spent in silence; it wasn’t until we pulled into the parking lot that I even realized the car had been moving.
We all got out of the car and walked into the Hospital, where Leeteuk asked a woman at the front desk about Hyukjae’s condition. She informed us that he was still in surgery and there wasn’t any news, she also told us to wait in the waiting room.
We walked into the waiting room and were greeted by the presence of other people who were equally upset. It was a scene that would break anyone’s heart, not every person in this room was going to get good news. The fact that we didn’t know Hyukjae’s condition or if he was even going to make it seemed to finally hit me when I took a seat in the small room. I let Yesung hug me closer to his body.
I didn’t know how I would be able to handle this situation if it wasn’t for Yesung. He was keeping me from having a complete breakdown, if it wasn’t for his warm embrace I would probably be a broken mess on the floor. My tears kept coming but Yesung wiped them away as he rubbed soothing circles on my back.
“Minnie?” I heard a voice call and I looked up to see Kyuhyun entering the waiting room. He walked straight up to Sungmin and embraced him into a tight hug.
“Teukkie” came another voice and I saw Kangin walk up to Leeteuk and hug him.
Everyone had someone to comfort them, but who was going to comfort Donghae?
We sat in silence, embracing our lovers as we waited for news of Hyukjae’s condition. It felt like we were sitting in that room for eternity. The rain was falling harder and every time the thunder struck everyone would cringe at the sound, it was like the outside world was mocking our pain.
I looked up instantly when Donghae walked into the room; it seemed like the pain in the room increased tenfold when he entered. He was being dragged into the room by Kibum and you could just feel the pain emitting from Donghae. You could tell he didn’t want to be here, that this is the last place in the world he wanted to be.
Kibum gently pushed Donghae into a seat when it became obvious the latter wasn’t going to do it himself. My heart broke at the sight in front of me, Donghae wouldn’t even look at anyone, all he did was stare at his lap. He looked like a frightened child, like anything could break him.
“Hyukjae?” he asked but it didn’t even sound like his voice. The usual cheer in his voice was long gone, replace by pure desperation and pain. I cried more at the scene, desperately wanting to answer his question but there was a lump in my throat, what must he be going through?
“He’s still in surgery” Yesung said and I was thankful that he was able to answer the broken boys question but the pain in the room seemed to increase as Donghae didn’t respond at all.
“It’s going to be okay” Leeteuk added but Donghae didn’t even move. If it was possible to see pain then there was no better sight then Donghae. He looked like a shell of a human, like a body devoid of life. It made me cry harder as I compared the usually happy Donghae to the being sitting in front of me now.
I couldn’t imagine the pain Donghae was in right now, every time I thought about how I would react if it was Yesung lying in the operation room instead of Hyukjae I felt physically sick. I wanted to comfort him, to tell him he wasn’t alone, that it would be okay but I couldn’t speak.
Somehow I found myself walking towards him, I sat down next to him and touched his shoulder, hoping that little gesture would let him feel hope. But he flinched away from it, like it was hurting him more than the fact that he was sitting in the hospital.
It broke my heart to watch him suffer like this but the next words than left Donghae’s mouth had stopped my heart completely.
“This is my fault” he said and then started to shake as he repeated “This is my fault” and just like that my voice returned
“No it isn’t” I said, how could he think like that. This was absolutely not his fault.
“How could you think that?” I heard Leeteuk say, he was now standing next to me as we tried to comfort Donghae but he flinched away from every touch.
“Don’t” Kibum said and I looked over at him, he had a pained expression on his face “Just leave him” he said looking into our eyes. He had the look like he’d seen this before, like he knew Donghae would break more if we continued to care for him. So we reluctantly went back to sit with our lovers.
I let Yesung wrap his arms around me as I watched Donghae bring his legs up to his chest and burry his head in them. It was a painful scene to watch. I felt my tears burn my eyes as I watch Donghae seemingly give up on the world around him.
“You’re both soaking wet” Sungmin said and I looked over to him, he had a pained expression on his face as he watched Donghae. He, like the rest of us must have realized there was nothing he could do to comfort Donghae. All we could do is watch his misery.
“I’ll go see if they have an extra pair of clothes for you two” Kyuhyun said before hugging Sungmin and going out of the waiting room to find a change of clothes for the two soaking boys in front of us.
We all sat there staring intently at Donghae, and then something in his aura changed. He ran a shaky hand through his hair and he started to shake as he pulled at the hair.
“Hae?” Kibum said sounding very panicked and it made me feel even more scared. He ignored the call of his name and moved his hands down to his cheeks and started rubbing at them violently. He then moved his hands down to his neck and started clawing at the collar, he was trying to rip it off not even bothering that he was scratching his skin at the same time.
“Hae?” Kibum and I called; it was too painful to watch as he ignored the call and tried to pull off the suit jacket that was clinging to his body.
I had to close my eyes, I couldn’t watch as my friend had his meltdown. I didn’t want to see this because I didn’t want to have to remember it. I didn’t want the sight of Donghae to haunt my dreams, because it would, it was too painful to watch.
I opened my eyes again when I heard multiple people say “Donghae?” in very concerned voices.
I looked up and saw Donghae right before he said “I can’t do this” and abruptly stood up and ran out of the waiting room.
“Donghae, come back” we all yelled but it was too late, he was already out of the hospital. We all stood up to go chase after him but when Kibum spoke we all stopped or movements.
“Don’t” he said and we all turned to face him with shocked expressions on our faces “He won’t go far” he said.
“What do you mean? We need to go after him, what if something happens to him?” I yelled. I was angry how could this guy just let Donghae go like that, didn’t he see how Donghae was acting a second ago? How could he just let him go out there in his state? “What if he gets hurt?” I yelled
Kibum’s face showed pain for about a fraction of a second before he gave a weak smile “He’ll be worse if we drag him back” he reasoned and I nodded my head in agreement but I still felt uneasy letting him go off alone.
“M-maybe you should fallow him” I said looking straight into Kibum’s eyes. I knew all about the whole Hyukjae-Donghae-Kibum love triangle, and I just thought the one person who could bring Donghae back would be Kibum.
Kibum didn’t answer he just looked down at the floor. I wanted to scream at him, push him out the doors, and force him to run to Donghae but something about the slump in his shoulders and the way he was hanging his head low stopped me.
He didn’t move for a long time and then suddenly he looked up with a flicker of pain in his eyes and said “I…I don’t think I should” I was about to protest when Leeteuk spoke up “I’ll go” he said
Before anyone could protest he was already walking towards the exit.
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Sorry this took so long to get up but I really didn’t like this chapter but I had to write it so the next part will work out. I hope this isn’t too much of a fail. And sorry for nothing actually happening in this chapter. I will post the next part as soon as I finish writing it, thank you for reading even though this chapter is seriously lacking.
if you wanted to know the reason this is in Ryeowook's point of view, its because i was seriously spazzing over him, it was originally suppost to be in Kibum's P.O.V. but i didn't feel like writing it like that