TO scared to wonder to scared to think but what is it just lying here waiting for something to crash into this place on the earth and turn me into nothing but a dent on the earth surface...never will i know but if that day were to come people would look and people would chatter and i wouldent know...i would only know the dark place where my mind ( Read more... )

im confused and scared but what can i do at this moment it will be wear off ina few houres...i just need to avoid my father...im not good at updating but i will again soon...if not Kelsey remind me to...your so blind as the prowler creeps to the next position just below your neck...darkness will come so swiftly...<3

I look through closed eyes and gaze at the darkness ahead of me but i think that this is all normal but sadly im trapt in my thoughtsand then pictures appear...things so readiant and vivide liek some kind of twisted colorations spewing and spinning about...theses feeling explian nothing of what i want of feel but I still blind myself... i hear the ( Read more... )

i AM OPTIMISTIC AND CONFUSED ABOUT EVERYTHING ALL THESES FEELING GOING THREW MY HEAD AND ALL THE LIQUID IS DRAINING AWAY THROUGH MY BODY MAKING ME FEEL BETTER BUT WEAKER AS TIME GOES ON...MANY PEOPLE FEEL THAT IM JUST NOTHING BUT THEY ACT LIKE I AM REALLY SOMETHING TO SHOW THAT THEY ARE CARING BUT OVERALL THEY WANT THERE NEEDS...I AM A CARING ( Read more... )

I stand quietly thinking louder than anyone can possible understand staring in to the sky making sure that it doesent fall on me wiish one day that the sum can stop this horrible turning we are all cast on to with out are will...you chose not to be created in you mind but everyone else around you doesent even suspect how thay feel living there life ( Read more... )

HEY EVERYONE IM DOING OK...THATS IF YOU CARE ( Read more... )

I am finally updating after al this time.I can now find some time in my life to update now and thank you for those who accually stayed with it and an especial thanks to kelsey for the lj beautification...i hope to hear from anyone who still gives a shit abpout this lj and hasent given up if you still look at my lj just post "i" as a comment..im not ( Read more... )

fuck everything you can all just go and drowned in a lake.......but i still love all of you except for one person ...and you know who you are and if you dont your a fool

TODAY I AM ENDING IT!

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