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[notalfredjones]

Characters: Matthew and Roy Harper
Location: Roy's Counseling room
Time: At...some point
Content: Matt is messed up. He has to go to the therapist. Yay.
Format: Action
Warnings: Stubborn emo angst hooray

Comments

[oncediddrugs]

[is throwing darts at a dartboard but pauses to smile at Matt once he walks in]

Hey, Matt. Have a seat.

[gestures to the chair]

Just wanted to check in. I was talking with your brother the other day, and I figured I better catch up with you, too.

[notalfredjones]

[shrugs and looks away] I know...I. [clams up and stares at the floor]

[oncediddrugs]

[concerned:]

Something the matter?

[notalfredjones]

[shakes head and sighs and looks away] ...Al is always the one taking care of me. Ever since then...it used to be the other way around actually. When we were really little. Then...that happened and he's the strong twin who takes care of us both but I want to be strong too. I want to be someone who can take care of him and help fight his battles but he treats me like a child. Like I'm not his twin, like I'm his kid.

[buries face in arms and sighs] It's...nn. It doesn't matter, he's the one who gets to do things. [smiles faintly] I'm the good twin right? [stands and fidgets, feeling sort of like a betrayer] U-um.

[oncediddrugs]

Hey, no, that's perfectly understandable. Nobody wants to be treated like they're less than capable. You tried talkin' to him about this?

[notalfredjones]

[shakes his head and looks away] No...I. We don't talk about those things. We don't even really talk about what happened...back then. We don't...talk. [laughs softly, almost bitterly] Al deals with things by ignoring they exist...He lied about knowing how our parents died until earlier this year. Last year, I mean. I caught him in the lie and made him show me, but we haven't really talked about it since.

[fidgets] But it's okay, I'm used to being the one who doesn't get noticed. And all.

[oncediddrugs]

Maybe now's a good time to start. You can bring in here if you need someone to moderate your discussion. What's the worst that could happen?

[notalfredjones]

H-He won't talk to me. Not even in our heads, he won't talk about it. When I asked him what happened, why I was crying in class, I had to actually pry to find out! [fidgets] He'll just think I'm a traitor for telling anyone about this...

[oncediddrugs]

That's not fair to you or him. How about you just tell him how you'd like to be treated? You don't have to talk what happened to your parents, or even with the kidnappings, not yet. But you owe it to yourself to tell him how you feel about where your relationship is headed, and you owe it to him too.

[notalfredjones]

I...can't just say that to him. He'll hate me. [looks away]

[oncediddrugs]

[softly:] He could never hate you. You're his brother.

[notalfredjones]

[looks away] I know he wont hate me but things wont be the same. I like being taken care of sometimes...

[oncediddrugs]

Everybody does. I still think this is a conversation worth having, though.

[notalfredjones]

I don't want him to shut me out. [taps his head lightly] Or... Get offended. Think I'm not grateful for him.

[oncediddrugs]

Tell him that. Tell him you're grateful. Tell him how much you care. You're not a bad brother for wanting to be treated equal. If he can take care of you, you should be able to take care of him.

[notalfredjones]

[laughs] Right...