Evisceration

[xglass]

Title: Evisceration
Author/Artist: Me.
Rating: NC-17. For sure. This isn't happy.
Character(s) or Pairing(s): DenmarkxSuFin.
Warnings: Rape. Gore. Not my usually kind of story. Has history, too. Also, author's note at the end under the cut.
Disclaimer: I don't own Hetalia.
Summary: [kink meme deanon] Sweden loses Finland's heart to Denmark.

-&-&-

Comments

hit by a ton of bricks...

[shieru21]

this will weigh on me for a while, i think. reading your note at the end, i couldn't help be curious if this was inspired by or meant as a kind of fan complaint?

Re: hit by a ton of bricks...

[xglass]

I don't think Hetalia will ever, ever go that direction, because it's a comedy, but if it's a fan complaint to the world then yes. Yes it is.

Re: hit by a ton of bricks...

[shieru21]

Yeah...Hetalia is def. comedy, but inasmuch as it plays with historical settings and military themes, violence and rape (one of the most persistent and ambiguously perceived forms of war and general violence) is definitely always lurking in the possibilities of its (extended) story world as well as its problems (as in, the more general discomfort with how it seems to ride on the edge of harmlessness and irresponsibility).

I mean, obviously I'm a fan and find most of it tons of fun (as I find BL and yaoi tons of fun), but it's also undeniable that violence and sexual violence is a big part of the imagination of its fandom...and the way we choose to engage or read that is something that warrants more conscientious something...

So, whatever it might or might not mean, I really appreciate you putting this out here.

[ducere_isoru]

It's so weird to read something like this in your blog, and No, It's not Hot at all... somehow, it didn't disturb me, it was more like it caused a feeling of mirkiness, and left me with grimace... but then... in a way it bursts the pink bubble... and I feel that it's fine.

And yes. I hate when people talk about these themes like nothing, because I have known, by first hand, how things are and it's horrible. I know how it crumbles someone slowly and made her fall apart, and was painful seen my friend like that... still is. She's a strong woman, even now when she can talk about it... it makes something cringe inside me. I didn't cry with her, the rage overpowered me... and somehow now I feel that I would like to have cried with her, but at that time I couldn't bring myself to do that. Still now it's frustrating.

Now, I'm wondering what led you to write about this...

[xglass]

Don't worry about me, I'm fine. Like you, I had a friend. I cried with her a lot. She's doing much better now, but that incident left its mark.

Not really sure what lead me to write this. Saw the prompt and this thing popped into my head and I couldn't make it go away.

But it's definitely out of place in my happy-go-lucky blog, you're right about that. I don't know, I have mixed feelings about this story. I like it but I hate it. It's weird.

[kestrad]

Wow...I just don't know what to say. This was just the worst story ever. Not as in bad writing or bad plot, not that at all. Just it was painful to read, and especially surprising coming from you. It made me deeply uncomfortable, which I'm guessing was what you were aiming for.

I absolutely agree with you about the glorification of rape, btw. It's always bothered me too how rape seems to equal love a lot of the time in fanfics. And how often a character will basically force another character to have sex even if they don't want it and it turns out to be the best lay ever, though that's a whole 'nother can of worms.

tl;dr: Creepy story, but really well done. And it got your point across quite effectively.

[xglass]

I'm glad it makes other people just as uncomfortable. I reread and grimace and wonder what the hell was wrong with me. D: Especially at the end, why did I feel the need to make Denmark cut all his limbs off? Why was that appealing to me?!

[kestrad]

Nothing's wrong with you. It really drives your point home!

Besides, you hang around the kink meme, right? Some of the stories on there are way more disturbing than this one was.

[anonymous]

...ohmygod

[xglass]

No, I don't think it's unforgivable to call it refreshing. Romance is fine and dandy, but there comes a point where you have to realize it's fiction.

I'm glad you (kind of?) liked it? I like that it made you uncomfortable. I reread it and it still makes me uncomfortable. And don't worry about the anonymous thing, I don't mind! (Can't figure out how to make unscreened comments happen. oh technology fail!me.