Fanfic: Forever Doesn't End This Soon
Title: Forever Doesn't End this Soon.
Author: stephie_nhbg
Rating: G
Fandom: CoN
Type: Fanfiction
Genre and/or Pairing: schmoop, angst, Susan/Caspian
Spoilers: none
Warnings: none
Word Count: 965
Disclaimer: None of this amazing world is mine, I just like to play in it.
Summary: I won't say goodbye . . .
Author's Note: So my first posted story in like forever, let me know if it sucks, I definitely need to get back in the flow. Oh and so you know the story begins the millisecond after the kiss in the movie, and extends towards the train station, It follows movie canon almost perfectly but I did tweak it a bit. Oh and it has kind of an open ended ending, so It could definitely be continued, or expanded upon.
Closing my eyes, I let myself melt into his embrace one final time. I could feel the tears on his eyelashes softly brushing the shoulder he had buried his face in, and the soft whisper in my ear as he released me . . . forever.
“Forever doesn’t end this soon, Susan, forever doesn’t end this soon.”
Before I could question him, I felt him place a small piece of paper in my hand and give me one parting smile. I turned away, I couldn’t bear to look at him, I wasn’t as strong, and I had to keep up the façade, for Lucy and Edmund. Slowly we made our way to the portal, Edmund in the lead, followed by Peter, then me, and Lucy brought up the rear. Every step towards the tree caused me to clench his note tighter and tighter, but I didn’t look back, I couldn’t, not now.
Suddenly we were back in the train station, and I knew that I would never be the same, a few seconds without him in my life, and already I felt faint and shaky. Thankfully Edmund kept the others occupied and I slowly sat down and with shaking fingers I opened his letter to me, and began to silently read.
My Dear Susan,
With just one glance in a meadow you turned my world upside down. Suddenly all of those years that I thought some great force held me to this earth, these rocks, was proven right, but it wasn't Aslan holding me, Susan. It was you. You are holding me here now, you are. I feel now, as if with that one look, that day we met, you attached a string from my heart to yours. I just didn't notice it then. I thought that the reason we became close was my lack of a family and your affinity to 'adopt' anyone who needed love. I've never been happier to be wrong. Yet with each passing moment we spent together that string grew stronger, and multiplied, you added another, and then another. Till this moment where I can't tell where you stop and I begin. We've merged, and I suddenly feel as if my whole life was only a prelude to this moment. That I haven't properly lived yet, not because of my age, or the shelter my Uncle stuck me in, but because I didn't know you. I know now that I would be anything for you, do anything for you, no matter what. So when I saw the look in your eye when you were in the square, it terrified me. I know that after you've read this I'll either be sitting next to you, or you'll be gone, forever. I'm terrified that it's the latter. I'm praying that I'm wrong and that you'll laugh at me and tilt your head to the side with a sigh, that you'll place your hand on my cheek and whisper 'There's no need to be afraid, I'm not going anywhere,' like after the raid on the castle. More than anything I want this fear to be wrong. But in my heart I can feel those strings holding me to you growing brittle, not because I've changed my mind, or because you don't feel it too, but because you're being pulled swiftly away from me. If you are gone, and this is the last thing you hear from me? Know that I love you, Susan. I love you and no amount of time or distance can change that. I'll see you again, maybe not for years, but I know that this isn't the end. It can't be. If you leave, that doesn't mean you're gone, because I can never lose you if you live inside my heart. I won't lose you Susan. I won't. I love you, and if you really are gone? Look down and a little to your left. That's where I'll always be, safe and happy in your heart. I won't say goodbye, because as long as I'm breathing a part of me will be with you. Forever doesn't end this soon love, forever doesn't end this soon.
- Caspian.
With a hand over my mouth I looked to the ground and tried to hold on, and kept repeating a mantra in my head, ‘Just wait till you get off the train, just wait, only a bit longer, just a bit.’ When suddenly I saw a pair of shoes enter my vision.
“Susan?”
Looking up I whispered through the unshed tears, “Yes Peter?”
Looking around, Peter dropped to his knees in front of me, and grabbed my hands, “It’ll be okay Susan, don’t worry, it’ll be fine. Okay?”
I answered with very little emotion in my voice, “Yes Peter. I understand. I’m fine.”
Pulling me into a hug he whispered, “No you aren’t, but that’s okay, you will be. Now I have a surprise for you, but you have to close your eyes first, Ready?”
“Yes, but I don’t see how -“
“Susan, just trust me, put out your hand.”
When I opened my eyes in my palm was a piece of tattered cloth, with an embroidered flower.*
“Now I know it isn’t much but he said it was all he had to give at the time, he was so insistent that you have something to remember him by.“
“Oh Peter, I love it, when did he give it to you?”
“Funny thing is that it was on the way back to his castle for his coronation, he gave me this to give to you If you ever had to leave, I laughed at him and said we weren’t but he was adamant that I take it, and give it to you if it did. It was almost as if he knew…”
- The End -
*Yes it is a piece of cloth from Caspian's flowered nightshirt, the one shirt he wears almost the whole movie.
Author: stephie_nhbg
Rating: G
Fandom: CoN
Type: Fanfiction
Genre and/or Pairing: schmoop, angst, Susan/Caspian
Spoilers: none
Warnings: none
Word Count: 965
Disclaimer: None of this amazing world is mine, I just like to play in it.
Summary: I won't say goodbye . . .
Author's Note: So my first posted story in like forever, let me know if it sucks, I definitely need to get back in the flow. Oh and so you know the story begins the millisecond after the kiss in the movie, and extends towards the train station, It follows movie canon almost perfectly but I did tweak it a bit. Oh and it has kind of an open ended ending, so It could definitely be continued, or expanded upon.
Closing my eyes, I let myself melt into his embrace one final time. I could feel the tears on his eyelashes softly brushing the shoulder he had buried his face in, and the soft whisper in my ear as he released me . . . forever.
“Forever doesn’t end this soon, Susan, forever doesn’t end this soon.”
Before I could question him, I felt him place a small piece of paper in my hand and give me one parting smile. I turned away, I couldn’t bear to look at him, I wasn’t as strong, and I had to keep up the façade, for Lucy and Edmund. Slowly we made our way to the portal, Edmund in the lead, followed by Peter, then me, and Lucy brought up the rear. Every step towards the tree caused me to clench his note tighter and tighter, but I didn’t look back, I couldn’t, not now.
Suddenly we were back in the train station, and I knew that I would never be the same, a few seconds without him in my life, and already I felt faint and shaky. Thankfully Edmund kept the others occupied and I slowly sat down and with shaking fingers I opened his letter to me, and began to silently read.
My Dear Susan,
With just one glance in a meadow you turned my world upside down. Suddenly all of those years that I thought some great force held me to this earth, these rocks, was proven right, but it wasn't Aslan holding me, Susan. It was you. You are holding me here now, you are. I feel now, as if with that one look, that day we met, you attached a string from my heart to yours. I just didn't notice it then. I thought that the reason we became close was my lack of a family and your affinity to 'adopt' anyone who needed love. I've never been happier to be wrong. Yet with each passing moment we spent together that string grew stronger, and multiplied, you added another, and then another. Till this moment where I can't tell where you stop and I begin. We've merged, and I suddenly feel as if my whole life was only a prelude to this moment. That I haven't properly lived yet, not because of my age, or the shelter my Uncle stuck me in, but because I didn't know you. I know now that I would be anything for you, do anything for you, no matter what. So when I saw the look in your eye when you were in the square, it terrified me. I know that after you've read this I'll either be sitting next to you, or you'll be gone, forever. I'm terrified that it's the latter. I'm praying that I'm wrong and that you'll laugh at me and tilt your head to the side with a sigh, that you'll place your hand on my cheek and whisper 'There's no need to be afraid, I'm not going anywhere,' like after the raid on the castle. More than anything I want this fear to be wrong. But in my heart I can feel those strings holding me to you growing brittle, not because I've changed my mind, or because you don't feel it too, but because you're being pulled swiftly away from me. If you are gone, and this is the last thing you hear from me? Know that I love you, Susan. I love you and no amount of time or distance can change that. I'll see you again, maybe not for years, but I know that this isn't the end. It can't be. If you leave, that doesn't mean you're gone, because I can never lose you if you live inside my heart. I won't lose you Susan. I won't. I love you, and if you really are gone? Look down and a little to your left. That's where I'll always be, safe and happy in your heart. I won't say goodbye, because as long as I'm breathing a part of me will be with you. Forever doesn't end this soon love, forever doesn't end this soon.
- Caspian.
With a hand over my mouth I looked to the ground and tried to hold on, and kept repeating a mantra in my head, ‘Just wait till you get off the train, just wait, only a bit longer, just a bit.’ When suddenly I saw a pair of shoes enter my vision.
“Susan?”
Looking up I whispered through the unshed tears, “Yes Peter?”
Looking around, Peter dropped to his knees in front of me, and grabbed my hands, “It’ll be okay Susan, don’t worry, it’ll be fine. Okay?”
I answered with very little emotion in my voice, “Yes Peter. I understand. I’m fine.”
Pulling me into a hug he whispered, “No you aren’t, but that’s okay, you will be. Now I have a surprise for you, but you have to close your eyes first, Ready?”
“Yes, but I don’t see how -“
“Susan, just trust me, put out your hand.”
When I opened my eyes in my palm was a piece of tattered cloth, with an embroidered flower.*
“Now I know it isn’t much but he said it was all he had to give at the time, he was so insistent that you have something to remember him by.“
“Oh Peter, I love it, when did he give it to you?”
“Funny thing is that it was on the way back to his castle for his coronation, he gave me this to give to you If you ever had to leave, I laughed at him and said we weren’t but he was adamant that I take it, and give it to you if it did. It was almost as if he knew…”
- The End -
*Yes it is a piece of cloth from Caspian's flowered nightshirt, the one shirt he wears almost the whole movie.