Cassie

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I don't believe it's f-locked so here.

I'm...upset for a lack of a better word. KKM and then Shounen Onmyouji will be on in a few minutes so I'm hoping they'll make this all better but... >_< My Y!M's picked the best time to fuck up (again) too, that I don't know if either 

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I'm sorry, my goddess. I'm either receiving messages late or not at all. I think it's my dial-up. I was able to chat okay earlier in sch**l, and on WiFi at that. I keep on saying this, but I really really need to get a better connection and--and I just really want to talk to you right now.>_< I can't concentrate on my work and my throat feels tight, like I want to cry. But I won't 'cause that's admitting how much it kind of hurts and I think everyone's so mad because it really really hurts for them and, yeah, I'm to get in trouble with my thesismates tomorrow if don't work now.>_

[listyfox]

I know exactly what you mean: I wasn't close to Cassie but I loved her characters and had a great time playing with her, and followed her journal entries with interest. I don't know why but it just never crossed my mind to doubt her word. And she was never anything but nice to me. I just feel awful about the whole thing.

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Hey, Heero. Yes, Lily was GW's little darling princess, wasn't she? You guys totally glossed over Trowa's disappearance, I noticed when she went missing, I didn't realize all of this was happening in the background.

She was just...Kaasan. They were few and far in-between but she'd listen to me sometimes and help me, and I even remember her telling me to go to bed or get to work once or twice. I squeed over Warden a lot and since I live on the other side of the world and have strange hours, I got to chat with her while she was 'in the hospital'. It's just all very upsetting and I don't even know all the details.

[jessiedark]

Wish there was something magic to say. I'm very very guarded about getting "close" online. Met enough people who lie in real life-- that very suspicious in private life.

It is a loss though because in a way this revelation of lies "killed" the person you thought you knew. So take break and do something to take care of yourself. (Get in the shower and cry?)

You can add me to your people to buzz if you need to talk-- saw you popping on and off this morning when I was doing my am bulls-- with kansouame and 2light4dark.

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^^;; I trust my online friends more than my real ones. I suppose that's not very wise, but--*shrug*

*sigh* I suppose you're right. No, you are right. Anyway, I've gotten some rest and am feeling much better (albeit still very sleepy but I've got a thesis paper to work on) now. Thank you.=)

*sigh* My connection here at home is seriously fucked up and I can't chat properly. Driving me crazy, seriously. But thanks a lot!^^

[eepitiuum]

You can trust me. But I'm not exactly just an online friend now, haha.

It's Kazie, by the way. New journal. ♥

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Yeah, I know. I already added you yesterday.<3 And, yeah, I've seen you so I know you're real. You know I'm real too, right?^_- Ahaha...

[eepitiuum]

Unless we're actually in some fantasy world we don't know about. Or a game where we think we're real but we're actually just characters being played by someone else. XD

Are you on AIM/YM/etc?

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Like, the Matrix?xDDD Or have you heard of HEAVEN (Heavily Entertaining and Very Exciting Network)? Apparently, only those with green eyes are real, are actually perfect beings (like angels) and life on earth is just a realistic RPG.

I'm on Y!M...procrastinating a reaction paper which I need to work on, because we'd be working on our thesis later and won't have the time.