Yea, if you think you know the subject, you do...i'm listening to that song right now, and I'm thinking about how much has changed just in the short time since i first heard it. I'm more myself than I've been for years, of that much I'm pretty sure...but I also feel uneasy about so much. I spent a better part of last night fighting with someone ( Read more... )

I was watching my favorite show tonight...and thought about life, as I always do, and I came up with this thought..."I want to be a hero." The more I think about it, the more that it makes sense. I want to save someone, to help them, to have their happiness show me what life is really all about...and the hero always gets the girl in the end...so, I ( Read more... )

If you think you know me...you don't. You don't know what my life was, you don't know what it is. No one knows what it is like to grow up utterly hated...no one understands what it's like to endure 18 years of pure misery...no one knows what it's like to find true and utter love at the end of a long dark tunnel...no one knows what it's like to ( Read more... )

I woke up about a half hour ago from a somewhat restless sleep of running from my fears...and I came to a realization of no more running...to or away from anything. This came about yesterday, when I quit talking to someone I cared about more than I think she even realizes. I did some thinking about whether I did the write thing to push her so hard ( Read more... )

I find myself doing a lot of contemplating today...and I think it all started with this. Last night I have this dream...I'm at my friends crazy uncle's place. So, me, him, and the crazy uncle are like, talking i guess or something...i remember a fridge too...anyways, so that gets boring and I decide to go outside, and there is this girl there...she ( Read more... )

Sitting in school...missed my first class because my back was hurtin pretty bad, from what i have no idea though...anyways, my dad asked me if i had class this morning and i said it was cancelled...why i lied to him, i don't know? I told my mom the truth, that i skipped because my back was hurting...but i dunno why i lied to dad? So like, now im ( Read more... )

Well...today was pretty uneventful...got my ebay stuff sent out, and spent money to rent Gauntlet a 2nd time...and btw, yea...took an hour to beat it, and turned out we had another day without havin to bring it back anyways...yea us...and umm...Ryan almost died by ELECTRIC SHOCK...so yea, if you are gonna cut a power cord off something...make sure ( Read more... )

Yea..all I can say about lately is...bored...maybe it's just the 4 day weekend like...right in the beginning of school, which is kinda cool, but basically just bored the hell out of me...so im trying to think of things to do, like anything, i just wanna be somewhere different, with people, doing something...any ideas? anyone? c'mon...there must me ( Read more... )

I dunno...that's how I have to start this one out...with an "I dunno." I've been feeling really...accomplished lately maybe? I dunno...I feel like I'm in the right place in life...which is a good feeling. I'm just pretty uncertain about a few things ( Read more... )

I wish I knew just who the fuck my real friends are...and I had an awesome night tonight...but, I guess...maybe things aren't as clear as I thought...maybe some people change for the worst, and they just don't turn back into the people that you knew...maybe they do sometimes...and maybe all I can do is wonder...but one thing I am doing...is staying ( Read more... )