If Only
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they sat, facing each other.
two cups of formerly steaming coffee, soon turning cold.
'how have you been?' yunho asks, voice still, devoid of emotion.
careful.
'i.. i'm okay. how about you?' changmin answers, voice shaky. he isn't sure. he should be out and far away.
kyuhyun sits near them, ready to pounce and drag changmin away the moment the other looks at him.
soo jin is at another corner, confused but teary. she isn't sure what has just happened but she just felt like she has just lost something really important.
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c:
right from the start, the only mistake we made.
in this story of the two of us.
was that.
we wanted more.
---
where have you been all this while? yunho starts, heavy with the weight of the questions that threaten to spill out of his mouth.
changmin looks up, eyes wet.
---
c- you seem happy.
y- changmin.
c- no, you are happy. you deserve to be happy.
y- changmin, stop.
c- i have to go. he gets up to leave.
yunho reaches over, and pulls him back down.
y- stop leaving. stop leaving me.
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y:
if we had said all we had to say that day,
would things be this way?
---
at least before you go. tell me. i loved you, i loved you with every inch of my being. damn it, changmin. tell me. why.
changmin swallows. it's time. he can leave after, he can keep the tears for later.
i thought it was best. what kind of love holds the other back? you were going to stay for me. you were going to give up your dreams for me. yunho. i had to let you go.
so you left me, just like that. without thinking twice. without hesitation. our story wasn't just yours to write.
aren't you happy now? didn't i do the right thing?
the right thing by what? choosing the easy way out then?
it was the best way.
the best way according to YOU. changmin, you had my heart. no, you have
my heart.
a drop of sorrow falls from yunho's eye, making its way down his cheek and onto the back of his hand. changmin watches the teardrop, feeling it roll down into his own soul.
---
c:
if i didn't destroy with one hand;
the things we built together,
would you still love me the same?
---
y:
i would love you,
as you tore my heart out
and broke me apart.
as you walked away,
and decided to live your life according to your rules,
i would love you.
as you smiled, laughed and cried;
no matter how far away;
i would love you.
as you carried my heart with you;
that unwilling burden that you shoulder.
i would love you.
as you wrote your own story,
i would stand here, watching you.
i would love you still.
---
so there they sat, the two facing each other.
words unspoken, yet a conversation unbroken.
changmin's hand has turned cold to his touch. but he doesn't move away. his hand still in the other's.
---
in the cafe that day, there were two looking upon two, two who loved in their own way; watching the two who still loved.
---
in life; the simplest thing is to love.
the hardest thing is to love in return.
- continues to love&time -
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a/n: this provides an insight into the conversation that the two would have had if they had spoken. there is logic to the way these series of drabbles are structured. i apologise for the angst.
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they sat, facing each other.
two cups of formerly steaming coffee, soon turning cold.
'how have you been?' yunho asks, voice still, devoid of emotion.
careful.
'i.. i'm okay. how about you?' changmin answers, voice shaky. he isn't sure. he should be out and far away.
kyuhyun sits near them, ready to pounce and drag changmin away the moment the other looks at him.
soo jin is at another corner, confused but teary. she isn't sure what has just happened but she just felt like she has just lost something really important.
---
c:
right from the start, the only mistake we made.
in this story of the two of us.
was that.
we wanted more.
---
where have you been all this while? yunho starts, heavy with the weight of the questions that threaten to spill out of his mouth.
changmin looks up, eyes wet.
---
c- you seem happy.
y- changmin.
c- no, you are happy. you deserve to be happy.
y- changmin, stop.
c- i have to go. he gets up to leave.
yunho reaches over, and pulls him back down.
y- stop leaving. stop leaving me.
---
y:
if we had said all we had to say that day,
would things be this way?
---
at least before you go. tell me. i loved you, i loved you with every inch of my being. damn it, changmin. tell me. why.
changmin swallows. it's time. he can leave after, he can keep the tears for later.
i thought it was best. what kind of love holds the other back? you were going to stay for me. you were going to give up your dreams for me. yunho. i had to let you go.
so you left me, just like that. without thinking twice. without hesitation. our story wasn't just yours to write.
aren't you happy now? didn't i do the right thing?
the right thing by what? choosing the easy way out then?
it was the best way.
the best way according to YOU. changmin, you had my heart. no, you have
my heart.
a drop of sorrow falls from yunho's eye, making its way down his cheek and onto the back of his hand. changmin watches the teardrop, feeling it roll down into his own soul.
---
c:
if i didn't destroy with one hand;
the things we built together,
would you still love me the same?
---
y:
i would love you,
as you tore my heart out
and broke me apart.
as you walked away,
and decided to live your life according to your rules,
i would love you.
as you smiled, laughed and cried;
no matter how far away;
i would love you.
as you carried my heart with you;
that unwilling burden that you shoulder.
i would love you.
as you wrote your own story,
i would stand here, watching you.
i would love you still.
---
so there they sat, the two facing each other.
words unspoken, yet a conversation unbroken.
changmin's hand has turned cold to his touch. but he doesn't move away. his hand still in the other's.
---
in the cafe that day, there were two looking upon two, two who loved in their own way; watching the two who still loved.
---
in life; the simplest thing is to love.
the hardest thing is to love in return.
- continues to love&time -
---
a/n: this provides an insight into the conversation that the two would have had if they had spoken. there is logic to the way these series of drabbles are structured. i apologise for the angst.