the earth turns, the sun burns, but i die without you

[x_mamapanda29_x]

so, im sorry i haven't written in this in like, over a month. i know alot has happened, and i barely even remember my last entry. emily and i are fine. life goes on. D.C. is over. well, im not really here to talk about events, actually. i just need to write down stuff that is confusing me at this moment in time

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[x_mamapanda29_x]

i know for a fact that he won't read it. he's like dave, he doesn't believe in reading livejournals.

and, i do find it strange that we go through the same things at the same time.

thanks, i love you.

but the weird thing is, and i was thinking about this after i typed all of this, is that i want him, but its my subconscious that does. i can be in class, say physics, and randomly be doodling, and i doodle his name without even knowing what i am doing. i guess its a sign of obsessiveness, but its not like i think about him 24/7. its just random parts of the day that make me think about him. i think im trying to reach for excuses here.

maybe i should try to put him behind me again.