Fanfic - SPN: Just For You (Sam/Dean)

[writingbyebonio]

Title: Just For You [Evil!Sammy Universe]
Author: eboniorchid
Fandom: Supernatural
Characters: Sam Winchester/Dean Winchester
Prompt: "030-Drained" for 100moods, challenge table here. "13-Blood Play" for 50kinkyways, challenge table here. "010-Inebriated" for sam_slut_a_thon, challenge table here. "Cuts like a knife" from Feb. 25, 2007, at 365wprompts.
Word Count: ~2800 words.
Rating: NC-17 for graphic

Comments

Just For You

[pbwhisperer]

Sam has always had a thing for knives. Dean passively endures so much for Sam, not just because he has been harshly trained to it in this universe, but because that is just who Dean is. Witness his defensive passivity when possessed Sam was hitting him brutally over and over in 'Bad Sign' Dean never tried to hit Sam back, just winced and endured it, until he could convince Sam to stop, or something else (Bobby) intervened. Interesting in Evil!Sam universe, concept that the mind and the body remember everything, even though all healed and no physical aftereffects, still brutal trauma to mind and body endures. Still hoping there is more behind this than pure evil. Want this to make sense in the end. And never envision myself as a cockeyed optimist. Quite the opposite, noted for pessimism and fatalism, actually. Just this universe is so painful, and all the more so if just pointless and mindless evil. Still making me think. Awesome writing.

Re: Just For You

[writingbyebonio]

Yes, there's definitely been discussion about how Sam's the knife guy and Dean's the gun guy. And you're right about Dean enduring so much for Sam, I actually think it's so much of why he rapidly spirals downward as Sam uses him.

The thing about the trauma in this 'verse is that it can't just be fixed, there are always lasting consequences, just like in the canon 'verse (like with all of Dean's angst after IMToD).

And about the question of whether this is all about pure or pointless/mindless evil, I can definitely say that it's not pointless or mindless, both Sam and I have ... hmm ... let's call them, 'larger goals', than just hurting Dean. As for the purity of the evil, though, I am not currently at liberty to say. Y'all and Dean are trying to figure that out for yourselves, I'd imagine. *evil grin*

Thank you, as always, for the awesomely thinky feedback. ♥

[akm30]

yeah, another chapter. I love how evil Sam is and how he hurts Dean. But I even love more how tender he is afterwards, almost as if Sammy is still in there somewhere.

[writingbyebonio]

Thank you! And yes, the almost dual nature of this Sam with all the moments of cruelty with a chaser of kindness are more than a little confusing for all involved, I'm sure. I'm glad you enjoyed it. Thanks for the feedback.

[aldrea7]

Gah, I love this universe so much. All the despair and pain is just so gripping. *gives you and Dean cookies* Evil!Sam doesn't get any.

[writingbyebonio]

Thank you so much! I'm glad you're loving it! I really like writing it! Thanks for the feedback! And the cookies. *eats cookies, looks shifty, palms some off to evil!Sam*

[anonymous]

That? Was scary. I can see why Dean gave up.

Yours
The embarrassed girl.

[writingbyebonio]

I'm sorry it scared you. Sort of. But you got exactly the point that I was trying to make. Dean can take a lot, but even he can crack somewhat under the right kind of strain. As always, thanks for leaving feedback!

Yours,
The Evil Author

[anonymous]

Well, it's hard to write my little pg to pg-13 stories after reading you *g*. I thing I should go read one of Ridley's stories, just for balance.

Yours
TEG.

[anonymous]

Think, of course, not thing. Also, I'm planning on sending you mail, as soon as I have the time to come up with a coherent one.

[ravensword]

Dude...I...have no words.

Cause...with the...knives...and the...Dean...and...OMG!

*thud*

You once told me my evil!Sam made yours look tame. I'm going to humbly disagree at this point.

[writingbyebonio]

Dude! I left Ms. Amara M. without words?! That's totally the coolest thing ever. Yis. *gleeful* Thank you for the feedback of your thud. That's really all I needed. It's like Christmas or something. :D

And, dude, no way, your evil!Sam was EVIL and TWISTED, all in big capital letters. There is no way to top the unique mental sickness that makes your evil!Sam have Dean participate in eunich-making with only teeth! OMG! Seriously, if the Devil is Prince Charming, my evil!Sammy is merely the ugly stepsister to your EVIL!Sam's Cinderella.

Damn, that's one fucked up analogy. LOL!

But I ♥ you, even in your obvious confusion about the relative evilness of various Sams. And I always appreciate your feedback. :D