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[worseforfears]

"Sometimes when you don't want a thing, but you have to spend enough time with it, you get used to it, and when it's gone, you feel... Lost."

So, somebody from down here posted that.  Des said it, or something along those lines.  Color me shocked, I didn't know Des could get philosophical.

But... I understand it.  I think.  I mean, what I've had to

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[nothingsodivine]

Why does it astonish everyone that I say insightful things every now and then? I couldn't have been a jackass every day for four thousand years, you know?

...And, of course, as soon as I say things like that, I completely fail at coming up with anything better to say.

You'd have us though, whatever happens. Me, and Cat-Boy, and, you know, everyone. That's gotta be something, right?

[worseforfears]

I don't know.

I hate saying it, 'cause it seems selfish and cruel, but I honestly don't know if it's enough. Because it's not everyone, it's you, and Luke, and maybe a couple other people eventually.

I just... I don't know.

[just1touch]

I don't know your situation, but I can understand the sentiment... in my own way.

Unless this fall you talk about comes with a complimentary side of forgetting...

Normal is impossible to reach.

[worseforfears]

No forgetting. Just pain. A lot of it. And probably death.

But not definitely. That's the part that's keeping me from falling.

[calicoway]

Des seems like he could be pretty philosophical to me! Yeah. I met him!

And you're kinda of scaring me, darlin'. I don't want to lose you.

[worseforfears]

Sorry, hun. Not trying to scare you, just...

Thinking.

I don't think about things like this very often, and when I do I get... well, I'd say morbid, but let's go with 'more morbid than usual'. :)

[stonebluesorrow]

It's been five years since I was turned into a Chimera by my great-grandfather.

Des said that to me when I first came through the Rift. And it's really scaring me because he's RIGHT. I don't know what I'd do. So I still don't know if I still want to be human again.

[worseforfears]

Only five years?

Huh. Somehow, I was figuring longer.

It's been about that long for me. Well, four years, almost.

[stonebluesorrow]

I was fifteen when it happened. Now I'm twenty. Seems like a Hell of a lot longer though.

[worseforfears]

Sixteen. Almost twenty, not quite.

So, I'm 19, I'm a junkie, and I kill people for a living.

...in a manner of speaking, I mean. I'm not a hit man or anything.