Secret #22: The Turning Point

[wooferstl]

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[wooferstl]

How right you are. Whenever i say yes, no matter how regrettably, i keep my word. That's why i wouldn't even admit that Matt and i were going out for about 6 months though anyone with eyes could see we were hooked up for life. So when i told him there in the middle of Sidetracks in '02 that i wanted to be his man, i meant it. There were tears...there are always tears. Then i took off in a conga line. i can't resist a conga line. At least i came back. i always come back.

[hamycub]

Waow... Churchbear just wrote what I think.

Sometimes, some people know you better than yourself and help you to find your way...

Thx for sharing great story, and as usual, very instructive.

[wooferstl]

Yes, all these "little incidents" that wind up being life-altering events in retrospect. The whole thing took 15 seconds. Her answer effected both of our lives forever.

[popotter]

Do you think she knew before you did?

[wooferstl]

She was wondering why we never fucked and wondered if i was queer. "Hell no, let's fuck!" said i. Since she was in the Army as well, i couldn't bring myself to come out to her. Hell, i hadn't really come out to myself. See? You're always the last to know about yourself.

[perkbear]

Did she give you a reason for turning you down?

I had given a my last girlfriend a ring that was meant to show my promiss to one day ask her to marry me. She was not pleased with me when i came out (she was the 2nd person i told)

[wooferstl]

There was too much going on in her life right then was basically her reason. She was looking at changes at work. We were both in the Army, so being single and being married effects where you can be assigned. We were still going to be friends, but the whole dynamic had changed. Before i left to ship off back to Germany, she mentioned that maybe we should rethink things. But i was off and i had made peace with myself. i guess i should tell the story of what happened next. A post for another day, i suppose.

[wooferstl]

That they do. The 15 seconds it took for her to give me an answer effected both of our lives forever.