What in the crap??

[winsome_smile]

Yeah...I've been pretty absent. And I've no explanation for it. *snort* I've kinda just had this craving to stay off my comp and watch movies w/ my sisters/mom. Needless to say I'm behind in many things once again. *sad sigh* I apologize greatly to my flist- I'll probably not be able to get caught up as I did before, but I promise to try to do

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[fiesty_red]

I think it would be very difficult to be completely over him, considering he was your first boyfriend and there were many things you and him went through in that relationship. You gave a lot at a young age. That makes a difference.

Of course the ass part most likely comes in b/c he's a typical guy in his young twenties, and that's when most guys that age just start to mature. I could be wrong and am probably talking right out of my butt, so don't mind me...

God willing, I do pray there is a lovely, mature guy out there for you, hon. One that will make you feel special and loved, and will not make you feel invisible. Ever.

Friends only? I wouldn't have it any other way, especially when it concerns the private posts. I just don't want some random person or someone in my past life coming around and reading my stuff. So yeah, I agree on the FO. ;)

Spending time with your family is definitely more important than the internet. I've made an effort to do the same. ^_^

*hugs tight* Missed you!

[winsome_smile]

I think it would be very difficult to be completely over him

I agree to disagree...*still doesn't quite know what that means* LOL! What I mean is...I know he still effects me, but I don't remember what all the feelings feel like. Yanno what I mean? I remember all the feelings that were there- but it's like...Glenn and I are two completely diff ppl now than we were back then...but you're right- so many of my young emotions were put into it. I fear they were damaged a bit. :(

Yes- he can be really insensitive! *flails* And not like- purposefully doing things, but just doing them. O_O I'm fo shizzle- it's like a bloody movie w/ him and me and how obnoxiously obnoxious it it...*rant*

God willing, I do pray there is a lovely, mature guy out there for you, hon. One that will make you feel special and loved, and will not make you feel invisible. Ever.

I pray for this too. Possibly a tall, handsome ScotsMAN on my trip to said lovely country, eh? :D

Friends only? I wouldn't have it any other wayYeah- it all makes sense. If thou should

[fiesty_red]

Agree to disagree is more like a truce of sorts between both parties. Instead of continuing to butt heads on a point, you finally come to a point where you say... we agree to disagree and go you merry way. ;) Hope that helps explain it a bit better.

I totally understand what you are trying to say about Glenn, even though I've never been in that situation myself.

I bet you would love to just take him by the shoulders and shake him, huh? Or at least ask him WHY? he acts that way. Even if he doesn't knowingly realize it, there has to be some realization b/c he is acting it out, ya know? Unless he really is that oblivious to his entire persona?

When I have time, yes... I'll make you a FO banner. :) I'm guessing you want it to look like the header? Or do you want it to represent friends? With Ben of course in the pic. ;) Let me know.

[winsome_smile]

*snort* LOL thanks. Well now I know. :D *hugs*

I bet you would love to just take him by the shoulders and shake him,

That is the very least of the things I've wanted to do to him...lol. But I just hug him instead. *sigh and shakes head* He really is a precious guy- he can just be very clueless sometimes...but he is a guy so...

Thanks, lovie! :D Actually I think I want the pic of the icon I'm using b/c it cracks me up and I think it would fit perfectly. Hahaha. I'll post in the Ben Comm and get the bigger version of it for ya. :) *hugs you* Thanks so much!!

♥♥

EDIT: Darn that heart. ;)

[fiesty_red]

Oh yeah... I'm getting a new iPod next week and I've named him Prince Jager Jensen Bons the 3rd. Hehe.... I couldn't help but tell you b/c it's a combo of Jensen's name and Ben's nickname. ^_^

[winsome_smile]

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Hilarious!! Awwww...is Squishy dead then? *is sad*

What is the Jager part??

[fiesty_red]

Squishy was my very first one, the white one. Sir Winchester is the black one, like you have. He is totally full and I can't put anymore on him so I am getting a new one (160GB) so I have plenty of room for a while to add more music. ^_^

Jager is just something random I added in there that sounds German. LOL!

[winsome_smile]

Awww so Squishy has been lain to rest...RIP Squishy!! *tear*

Jager is just something random I added in there that sounds German.

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I love you, Melly! :D *smishes*

[edgeofthewild]

*hugs* Glad you're back. Sorry about the ex-boyfriend thing. Yeah ... I think you can definitely still be affected by someone, even if you don't have feelings for them anymore. Old habits can die hard. Yay for God, though. I wish I'd started praying for some of my pseudo-exes (I say pseudo because the first one, we never really officially said to each other or the world that we were an item; the second, we only "dated" for a week). But all that to say, I didn't ever really pray for them. For me, sure, to get over all the crap, but not for them. Hmm.

WOW, okay, long paragraph. Sorry.

*giggle giggle giggle* I love the Benny pic. :D That completely made my evening.

[winsome_smile]

*hugs back* Thank you, dearie. ^__^

Yeah, well, like I said- he is a friend of mine now. Which is an absolute miracle!! I seriously don't know how it happened, but I'm glad it did cause I'm like, extremely close to his family. The pic of me and the guy in the previous post is actually his little brother...lol. So I pray for him b/c I think the Lord lets me see some things happening in his life that others can't b/c they weren't as into him as I was. *snort* So if I'm seeing it- I ought to pray. :D But believe me, I've done plenty of praying for myself in this area too! *snort* And Glenn has been my only boyfriend. I haven't had one since.

Hehehe- I know, isn't it grand?? Betty's like- 100 years old and she thinks Ben's "sexy". *giggle!snort*

♥♥

[winsome_smile]

Lol- aye. *shakes head* He's the only ex I've got, but bless me if it isn't enough. O_O How can ppl handle more than one?? *flails*

I know!! Only I don't think I'll get my pages done in time. :( I think I'll add a pic of myself in his card anyway. :D

*hugs* ♥♥

[witchofgaia99]

Dude, is that a real autograph from Ben?
I'm jealous!

Sorry about the boyfriend troubles, it will get better I promise...
*glomps* I missed you too! Comment me man!

[winsome_smile]

No it's not real!! Haha- if it was, I'd be freaking out like crazy, and then be convicted of murdering my coworker after hugging the life out of her. O_O :D She just did it herself on the comp. Hehehehe.

Yeah- it's not really troubles anymore. Just from time to time. It's been almost 8 years since we broke up so...:)

*hugs you*