Title: Means to My End
Rating: M
Characters: Will/Finn, various others.
Word count: 5,000-ish.
Summary: Greif is an ugly place. When Carole dies suddenly Finn doesn’t cope well, and Will gets caught up in the middle of it.
Warnings: angst, character death, dub-con, angst, some daddy-kink, some violence, angst.
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Means to My End )
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“You’re not allowed to leave me,” Finn breathed into Will’s ear.
“I won’t,” Will replied, his face pressed against the cool paint.
Gah, this just sent shivers down my spine, body's aching all the time~.
A couple grammatical/spelling errors here and there, but other than that I really enjoyed it! Great job!
And loved the April cameo!
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For a long while I had no idea how to end it - things needed to change between Will and Finn, but neither of them could be the agent of change alone, and then I had the idea of putting April in. She was the only character that I could see who would understand the nuances of their bad relationship and act solely in Will's interest. Also, I love April.
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You totally nailed the ugly, selfish, self-destructive, wallowing grief that can make a person so unlikable. And you feel so guilty for being frustrated and secretly wishing they'd snap out of it, so you give just a little more leeway, just a little more rope that they can hang themselves with.
Will reflecting that eventually everyone was going to get tired of holding Finn up and move on---so fucking true and painful and awful.
And just the way the more he tried to fix Finn, the more it kept tearing him up and he couldn't walk away and he couldn't tell anyone about, and everyone kept expecting him to be the strong one...
Oh, and Burt calling both Finn and Kurt 'my boys.'
Damn you, stab the knife a little deeper why don't ya.
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"You want naughty bad wrong sex, I'll give you naughty bad wrong sex. AND TOSS IN SOME PUNCH TO THE SOLAR PLEXUS ANGST!!"
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I spent a lot of time thinking back the times when I or someone I've known has been in mourning, trying to find the right words to express wanting someone to get better so much that all you want to do is yell at them because nothing else has worked. And, of course, Will just isn't a guy who could yell in that situation, so he just keeps giving more and hoping. So, um, it's nice to know that I did that right?
I really wanted to write more of Burt and Kurt in this, but the Will-Finn mess was big enough and I was worried that if I examined the Hummel-Hudson household to closely the angst would make the fic collapse on itself.
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I hate when angst doesn't have a happy ending. It's all so complicated and I don't know where they stand with each other and I just feel for both of them and want to have an intervention or something.
Like, I can't work out if Will likes Finn or just feels like it's an obligation or something, and I don't know if Finn likes Will either. And I'm just desperate for them to fix things. D: And I want to hug them. Forever. I don't care if they're fictional, I'm giving them e-hugs.
But it a weird way, I kind of love this. Because even though it's totally screwed up, Will and Finn are totally dependant on each other and can't not be. And if you squint and ignore the grief and pretending it's Finn's dad, dominant!Finn is totally hot.
Oh and I don't want Carole to die ever. Because Finn WOULD be totally screwed over by it. And she's too epic to die. D:< Let's hope the demin bleach doesn't get to her.
So, um, yeah. Don't know how to comment on this properly. D: Great fic though, the emotions came across amazingly.
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I think that Will does legitimately like Finn as a person, which is why he takes himself out of the teacher-box in the first place. But does he like Finn in a romantic/sexual way? I don't think he ever got the chance to really examine that before he had a crying boy on top of him and a hand down his pants. In the same way I think that Finn likes and trusts Will, which is why he reaches out to him instead of Burt or Kurt, but he's so wrapped up in grief that he takes what he can without thinking about whether it's what he really wants. I tried to imply with the ending that Finn returns to Will (and Will lets him) because there's something more than just anger and pain between them.
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So yay for them actually having genuine feelings for each other and not doing things out of obligation. And yay for Finn maybe sort of getting better?
On a different note, I wish things were as simple as just sticking your hand down a teacher's pants and saying 'this is what I want' and getting it. >.> I mean, that takes some balls, man. Go dominant!Finn.
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I wish things were as simple as just sticking your hand down a teacher's pants
Lol. I'll be sure to include this method of action in future fics.
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I also loved Finn punching Will.
I think I've mentioned before commenting on another of your fics, but I love that you bring everyone into the fic - so often I read fic for pairings I enjoy across lots of different fandoms and it's almost like it's just the two of them in a capsule. I particularly like Emma and Kurt (and the idea that Kurt might know what's going on with Finn and Will).
So, yeah. Overall, awesome fic!
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In my head, Kurt would be quite jealous of any significant relationship that Finn and Will could have - Will is the father figure/friend/lover that Kurt has never had, and he's also taking away something that is very important to Kurt, Finn. I really wanted to imply with this fic that while Emma was encouraging Will to stick by Finn, Kurt was working on Finn's end to get his shit together. Oh Kurt.
Anyway (after all of that ramble), thank you for your comment :D
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And, cute as they can be in the show, I adore Will and Emma as friends.
But yeah - I also have to congratulate you for not flinching away from all the nasty little truths. As an adult he knew that eventually Finn’s friends would drift away from him, that the silence and the moods and the high wall that surrounds those in grief would prove to be too much.
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Will is such a trooper. His relationship with Terri set him up (to me) as someone who is in for the long haul, no matter how bad it gets and he only walked away from Terri when she betrayed his trust. However, in this relationship with Finn, they're clearly not equals, and trust is a much sticker issue, which is the way it's been since the beginning of their friendship. It's a lot harder for Will to find the end point of 'okay, this is clearly not working'.
Anyway, enough rambling. I'm really glad that you liked this story - your five stars has me quite tickled.
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