Reality and Dreams - Chapter 8 / Epilogue

[willow2883]

Note: When I first posted this chapter back in February of this year, I made it the Alternate ending. Upon going back recently and re-reading Reality and Dreams, I decided that I much preferred this ending. So I am officially changing it. This is now “the ending” and I will add the other Alternate as well, so you can read that after reading this.

Comments

[needjakenow]

OH MY GOD!!! WHY!!! :( This will take some time to get over.

Just so you know, the link to the alternate ending is marked private.

[needjakenow]

Sigh.... even though you ripped my heart out, I enjoyed everything up till this point. I expect fluff soon, miss! Lol

[willow2883]

Like I said, I'm sorry. Werewolves imprint. I tried to foreshadow that a little bit in Chapter 7. There was a lot of talk about imprints. Jake broke my heart too. That's why I wrote the Alternate chapter. So sorry you couldn't get to it right away. I took the post down completely for personal reasons, but they're back up now.
Thanks for sticking with me to the end. I appreciate it. Go read some fluff now. :)

[willow2883]

I'm sorry. The link is up now.

[lsjcandy]

Fuck not being harsh to you.
Fuck you. No really, fucking go to fanfiction hell or something ^^
I mean, you, like most good fanfic writers, made me like Bella, because you made it sound logical that she and Eddie blew off the wedding. And then you go and pull a shit trick like this.

Sorry, it's like 02:30 am and now I'm grumpy because she went back to Edward. You know, the sex was good and the imprinting... Survivable. If she eventually would have moved on, I coul have lived with that, liked it even. But she just goes back to her stupid teenage obsession to be a sparkly, stupid, lazy-ass vampire.

Really, I am sorry that I have to leave such a shitty review, but me no gusta. No gusta. And I like angst, I do, but not like this. I don't care if the fic went like this, just go back and force it to kick Edward's ass out of there.

Damnit, late hours (or early, you choose) and fanfiction obsessions don't go well together.

[willow2883]

Sorry. :(

[lsjcandy]

No, I'm sorry for leaving such a review like this.

[willow2883]

If someone I didn't know had said it, I probably would have cried. But coming from you, it kind of made me giggle. :)

[willow2883]

I know, I'm sorry. It broke my heart too. It was hard because the alternate ending was my originally intended ending. But then when I wrote it - Jacob imprinted on me. I almost just put up the alternate ending, but I felt like I was denying the 'true' ending, but I truly did not intend to upset people. Trust, I've been agonizing over this for weeks, and I've had people mad at me for this ending and then tell me I was a wuss for putting up the alternate ending. So it was a lose/lose for me. I can take the bad/mad reviews - I was expecting them. Anyway, I'm sorry I broke your heart today. I've had a rough weekend too, if that's any compensation! LOL Thanks bb, for reading through to the end and telling me how you felt. :)

[audreyii_fic]

I don't like it, but I like it, you know?

But I knew if I gave people a choice, they would never read this version. And I wanted it read.
This... is a little bit of a problem. The thing is that people generally come to fanfic for a specific purpose, and that is to get out of it what they didn't get from the books (unless it's a canon-compliant fic, obviously). In the case of J/B, what we did get from the books was Jacob imprinting and dying and a E/B endgame. So when you've got something that goes so massively against the general custom of the fandom, it's best to stick a handful of warnings on it

[willow2883]

I don't like it, but I like it, you know?
I know exactly, because that's how I feel. Going in, the Alternate ending was my originally intended ending, but then when I started writing it - Jacob imprinted on me. I didn't know what to do. Cos now this one became the real end to me. So what to do?
A big part of this ending was about the shock of it. It was shocking to me, it was shocking to Bella - I felt it had to be shocking to the readers too - so if I put a ton of warnings on it... see? You know I angsted about this - this is why I asked you if you would look at it a few weeks ago. I really agonized over what I should do. I knew I would get bad reviews - I expected it (I didn't expect the crazy Twitter woman though). And I know (especially now first-hand) that people are very sensitive to heart-fail endings and looking for J/B fluffy fun. If I had to do this over, I would have done what you suggested - posted this as the Alternative. But the damage is done now and I think the majority of people have already read. Live & learn

[amaggiepie]

I didn't leave a comment when I first read this because I really like you personally and I didn't want to leave you a bad review. I see you've already had a good deal of drama. *hugs

[willow2883]

You're actually absolutely right - I wanted to end it at 8 chapters, especially knowing I was going to have to do an Alternate now, and it should have been told a little slower. I'd been so afraid I wouldn't finish the fic, that I got flustered (I was taken surprise myself at Jacob's imprinting), and I think I didn't want to deal with the details, so I wrapped it up. I would go back and do maybe a detailed one-shot on the specifics, but it would be too painful and I don't think anyone would be interested in reading it. That was part of it too - it was so painful, I wanted to wrap it up and pull the band-aid off without too much owies. So I did it quick. But no, I agree, it was a little rushed. Dammit woman! Now you're making me think about it and I think I would have enjoyed Bella at Angie's wedding and her and Mike rekindling their relationship.
Oh well.
I have to say I admire you for being brave enough to put this out there, even though you knew some people would hate it.Thank you. I actually had two reviewers say they know I just