Happy birthday to me!

[wikinger_elfe]

Three people showed up... One got sick from the strobe lights and left, one wouldn't stop being moody and had me in tears, and one is still my Bestest. I got more birthday love from the guy outside who burnt me with his cigarette.

Happy fucking 30th.

Comments

[mikisnotlegacy]

I had YOU in tears? I immediately lost you when going into the club, you then find me, bitch at me, and then stomp away before I could even respond and then proceeded to spend the rest of the night away from me. So, if I was moody, I think I had reason to be. I know you're worried and upset about a lot of stuff but I'M the one who you took it out on all night whether you meant to or not (and I don't think you did, for the most part) and I don't get how that's fair and how I'm supposed to be okay with that. So Happy Birthday but try to put the "Happy" in it because I can't have another night like last night and you can't either. It's unfair to us both. And this entry is unfair to me AND your sister. We both showed up for you and one you treated like shit and the other can't help having problem with strobe lights (you know how bad her headaches can get so don't be mad at her).

That's all.

[malvagitabella]

I wrote the first response to this entry quickly and out of anger. Now I find myself crying over it because, like, I shouldn't have said, whether I think it's the truth or not. I would just erase it but, since you got it any way, that wouldn't help matters. I'm sorry last night was so bad. That's what I would have said in the first place had I not been so... I don't know, depressed and angry? I don't know what I was. Anyway, here's hoping you have a better night tonight.

[malvagitabella]

Yet another comment, I know. But, there was something I wanted to leave in my phone message but couldn't get out of my face because I was about to start crying. Anyhoo, another thing I'm sorry for is that I didn't overcome things and help you have a good night. Thinking back, I know you didn't mean to bitch at me or be in a bad mood. Things like that just happen. I should have, I don't know, been a stronger sort of person and got past it. But, I'm not. It's one of my many personality flaws. I can't handle bad moods when I can instantly solve them and being bitched at in ANY way, no matter how small, just makes me cower inside myself. It's... it's part of the whole mess that was made of me when I was living at home. Which doesn't excuse it, it just means I don't know what to do about it and nothing instant can be done about it so I try not to focus on it. Anyway, enough with this. Tonight, I will strive to make you have a good night even if I have to hit you in the eyes with happy. Okay?

PS: Is it okay if I have chocolate mousse

[shemightberikki]

:( Awwwww.... I'ma come see you at BD's if'n I can tonight! I loves yoooooooooooooooou!

Stupid strobe lights.

[wikinger_elfe]

Strobe lights suck.

[shemightberikki]

Evilllllll seizures of d00000m!

[shemightberikki]

[gwydapllew]

*hugs* Burfdays are teh suck.

In English, that translates into Yomo heleva. Which is really Swedish, but you get my point. :)

[rosdubh]

Hope you got my happy bday text this morn!

If not:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEAUTIFUL!!

[wikinger_elfe]

Oooh, that was you!!! I just got the message from a random number, and I had no idea who it was. Thank you!!