Emotionally Drained... but feeling a hell of a lot better

[whogeek]

A solution in multiple parts. I'm going back, now that I have gotten my head screwed on right again. Depressed Whogeek is going away, hopefully forever, and I'm gonna try again.

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[whogeek]

Thanks for the support. XD

[talkingtocactus]

So that was causing the "How long would it take before someone noticed I was gone/dead?" thoughts.
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that thought reminded me of one of my all time favourite songs! "what she said" by the smiths - do you know it?

And those thoughts were causing some mild depression and suicidal thoughts. Like "What would it be like to slice my arm open and feel all my blood draining?

wow, welcome to my world... yeah those thoughts aren't good. i'm glad you managed not to act on them, you're doing better than me!

seriously, i'm glad you've come to a decision and the fact you have a clear plan suggests it's one you can follow through on. i hope it works out for you, and the fact it's a plan in sections means that even if one section doesn't go to plan, you can keep going with the rest and alter that if you need to. good luck :D

[whogeek]

No, I don't know that song. **goes to find song**

Actually, I came up with two separate plans. The "leave my college and go to community college" plan, and the "Stay at my college and fix the things that are really causing the depression" plan. And, I've got flexibility if I find it's NOT working. Thanks!

[talkingtocactus]

it's off their album "meat is murder", it's one of my all time favourite songs ever, i love it. it's one of those songs i like to think was written about me, not literally of course but it really is too accurate!

two plans are better than one! it's always good to have a back up! i hope it works out :)

[whogeek]

As do I. It's a good song, but Jetpack_Angel filled my head with "Hide and Seek" and it's really just kinda grabbed ahold of my brain and taken over.

[jetpack_angel]

*rubs hands together* Muahahaha--okay, fuck it. You people are awake this goddamn early every day?! Yes, it's 11 AM, but this is the motherfucking middle of the night for me! Why can't doctors' offices be open past fucking 5? *is in cranky cat mode, hunching shoulders and going 'rrrrrr' at everything that moves*

Anyway. Was gonna leave you with this last night. It's another song for you, this one by Assemblage 23, called "Lullaby." I love Assemblage 23 to bits. Just... just don't ever listen to "30KFT" or "Disappoint" on your bad days, okay? Because once you do, you will fucking put them on repeat and never stop crying and listening to them. But anyway, "Lullaby."

"May you find solace in the gentle arms of sleep

[whogeek]

Yes, most people are awake at 11AM. And hey, remember, I'm an hour ahead of you. I do cranky cat too! First time people see it really freaks them out.

Thanks for another song! Not my usual style, but I like the lyrics.

[jetpack_angel]

"Lullaby" is a song that's uncharacteristically quieter and smoother than Tom's usual stuff. Assemblage 23 is a one-man band and Tom Shear usually does almost-trance, almost-dance techno with (sometimes) some oddly depressing lyrics. But it's good music. Grab "I Am The Rain," "Awake," "Naked (the God Module Mix)" and "Let Me Be Your Armor" before you decide whether or not you like has stuff.

[whogeek]

I like the lyrics, but, sadly, most techno tends to give me a headache. The pitfalls of working a sound-system. Feedback, squealing, and mic-buzzing pretty much ruined all techno for me. I know on one level that that's what the artist is going for, but certain sounds make me grind my teeth. Hence the headache.