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[whitleigh]

Have you ever felt like such a bitch? You can't do anything right and the choices you all make are obviously the wrong ones? Thats me right now. Maybe the paintball tourney isn't such a great idea. Should I go?

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[somnolentpoet]

You should go. You want to go. Don't not go because of other stuff.

[whitleigh]

I don't know if I want to go, Andrew. There's more here for me I think if I don't go. The only thing I think that I could possibly recieve there is pain. But I guess I have to go, cause everything is already paid for including my ID card so they are expecting me to go.

I don't know.

[gator_ade]

just cuz its paid for doesnt mean you have to go. money should be the last thing in your mind when something is causing you this much emotional stress.

[whitleigh]

Right..but if I don't go, then Jaclyn won't go..and if Jaclyn won't go, Michael said he wouldn't go. Then Jeff, Dustin, Chris, and everyone else gets pissed. It's all fucked up.

[gator_ade]

its not about them right now. its about u. nothin is more important than personal happiness. a true friend would se the situation youre in and they would understand.

[whitleigh]

I put others first more often than myself. I rather see other people happy and smiling before myself, because I know that in the end, I can deal with it..whereas I know some of my friends can not. Many have attempted suicide because of pain and anxiety..I don't want my friends to feel upset for any reason, much less of a reason I have caused.

[justfinethanku]

the answer to you origional question is yes. but it is more the things I say not the things I do. But I do love pizza. if we had good pizza at pizza shack I would be a very very fat man.