I'm being bad. I'm coming online and looking at pictures and reading stuff (all to do with eating issues) when I should be sleeping. I know this is bad/destructive behaviour. I need to stop.
i do this at least 4 nights a week...my excuse is that being insomniac it makes no difference because i won't sleep anyway, but that's not really the truth. i spend a lot of time && thoughts on this destructive obsession.
The good news is that I made myself turn off my computer after posting this entry, and I didn't weigh myself this morning. But the feeling of "crap, I didn't weigh myself this morning!!!!!" is shitty. I like to think of myself as semi-recovered, so I force myself to do things that someone without an eating issue would do. I think doing that stops me from getting sucked all the way back in. It also helps me keep a grasp on healthy reality, even if I'm not all the way there.
I could do this all night. Tumblr, meal plans and exercise regimes that never follow through, reading nutritional facts whilst trying not to wake anybody up. Yeah, hi there
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I like to think of myself as semi-recovered, so I force myself to do things that someone without an eating issue would do. I think doing that stops me from getting sucked all the way back in. It also helps me keep a grasp on healthy reality, even if I'm not all the way there.
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