Like a lizard on a window pane; Song Theme
You…
Name: Sasha
Which character were you stamped as? Max
Priorities and philosophies…
In order of importance to you, rank: friends, family, enemies.
Friends - My friends mean the world to me, and are definitely what I would consider my family, more so then my actual blood relations. I would take a bullet for my close friends, in an instant.
Family - Because when all is said and done, they are my family. I have a love/hate relationship with them, but I do still love them.
Enemies - I try not to make enemies, but I do have a fair share of people who hate me. I try to not let it effect me, though -because I don’t like the idea of giving so much energy and care to someone who despises me.
In order of importance, rank: love, beauty, truth, freedom.
Freedom - My number one value. Freedom is the most important aspect in my life. I’m miserable when I feel confined and caged, I can’t function. Oppression tortures me. I need to feel like I can spread my wings and fly away whenever I need to, not that I am restrained. Restriction is my enemy, probably why I get considered a rebel. I hate things tying me down.
Love - I believe Love and Beauty kind of go hand in hand, because love is beautiful. I’m not necessarily talking about romantic love, but love in general. For friends, for family and for the world.
Beauty - I believe beauty is purely selective, but I believe it’s very important. Not necessarily aesthetic beauty, but in emotions and thoughts and experiences.
Truth - Because it’s another selective thing. Everyone’s opinion on what is truth is just that, an opinion. Anything can be real if you think it is.
Is ignorance bliss? No, though sometimes I’d prefer to be ignorant to the truth -as it has a tendency to be hurtful. But in the end, I’d rather someone tell me the truth and find myself hurt, then to lie to me and keep me in the dark. It’s about making the best out of the situation, but having a good grasp on it first, whether it’s positive or negative in content.
Is the glass half full, or half empty? Empty, because I drank whatever was inside of it, or full, because I just poured myself another. But seriously…it’s usually full for me. But I have my jaded moments where I don’t give a shit.
What do you…
What do you look for in a friend? First of all, someone who can tolerate and hopefully understand the way I think and feel, and why. I have twisted logic, sometimes, and I need someone who can try and understand and make sense of it, since I find myself so lost in things. I can be incredibly enthused about something, or very ‘apathetic’ in certain situations, I need my friends to be able to differentiate and understand. So I guess empathy and sympathy are important to me. I also need them to have a good sense of humor [hopefully compatible with mine], and to be intelligent [whether book smart or street smart, I don’t discriminate]. Someone who is willing to listen and not judge. And creativity and imagination.
What do you look for in a significant other? A sense of humor and intelligence first and foremost. I desire someone who is creative, and interesting. I get bored easily, so I need someone who can continually captivate my attention.
What characteristic do you value the most? It’s a tie between humor and empathy.. I find that the ability to make someone laugh is extremely important, but the ability to try and understand and relate is that way as well.
What do you want to be 'when you grow up'? I’d love to be a writer or a journalist, travelling around and discovering things…but that’s sort of unrealistic. I’ve settled for prison counselor with a specialty in gangs.
Across the Universe and other music relations…
What was your favorite song? Strawberry Fields because I’ve always related a ridiculous amount to the song. I actually cried during that scene while watching it. A close second would be Happiness is a Warm Gun because it reminds me a lot of my history with drug addiction, and the third would be Let It Be because it was played at the funeral of several of my friends, and is very comforting.
What was your least favorite song? If I Fall…I’ve never been a huge fan of the song, but also during that scene my attention sort of wavered and I was uninterested during it.
Pick a lyric from one of the songs in the movie that is meaningful to you, and explain why it is.
I’m choosing two from the same song [Strawberry Fields], because I honestly couldn’t decide, they’re both so relevant.
Living is easy with eyes closed, misunderstanding all you see.
It's getting hard to be someone but it all works out.
It doesn't matter much to me.
The first line is really relevant because it reminds me of the cocaine addiction I had. The fact that I was blinding myself from reality because it was easier, less painful, and as a consequence I misunderstood and incorrectly interpreted a long of things. The second line because I was feeling like I had begun to lose whatever identity I had shaped for myself, and became really confused as to who I was. The third line because I really didn’t give a shit, I didn’t even care anymore. It didn’t matter.
Always, no, sometimes think it's me, but you know I know when it's a dream.
I think I know I mean "Yes," but it's all wrong.
That is I think I disagree.
It reminds me a lot of some of the harder experiences I have. During my addiction, or cycling [I’m bipolar], I’d be stuck in this introspective mood where I’d feel like I was the only person who was feeling or experiencing things, and then I’d sort of waver and ‘sometimes’ think it was me. But I’d be aware in the back of my head that it wasn’t real, that it was just my thoughts and hallucinations, sort of like a dream. And I’d think I knew what was going on, and I did [“Yes”] but simultaneously know that I was wrong, and I just wouldn’t agree with what I was feeling, what I was thinking and what was going on. But I wasn’t very proactive about it, the thoughts would just circulate. I’d sort of lose myself, but wouldn’t know what to do about it.
What's one of your favorite songs that isn't ATU? Up to three allowed.
Milk It - Nirvana
This song has always been very, very close to me. The lyrics reflect how I’ve felt extremely well, like a mirror. That’s actually where my screen name comes from. The bitter irony and humor as well as the aching in it are something I can relate to.
Perfect Fit -The Dresden Dolls
Another song I can really relate to. About once being able to fit, feeling right…but then sort of growing out of it and losing your sorts and your grip on reality. Feeling like you’re floating away, the strong position you once had disappearing.
Summertime - Janis Joplin
The struggle, the obstacles and knowing that one day you will rise above them, you will overcome and conquer them. It’s always been a comfort song to me.