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[westslide]

Blergh. No matter how many posts like this I read by other people where they talk about their mental wellbeing and I’m all, “so?”, the idea of doing it for myself is still ridiculously daunting. I don’t mean “so” in the way of “I don’t care”, but in the way of “this doesn’t change how I think about them”. Though I don’t know if I’m feeling daunted

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[ext_2025908]

You're not alone. Don't ever feel like you are. I will do anything in my power to help you, no matter how inane it might seem to ask for. No stupid requests.

[archangelonline]

I don't see you often enough these days - if you're ever available for a catch-up/writing session, give me a shout; you went and got a job last time we tried that.

[westslide]

I was totally going to reply to people when I was feeling Good and Balanced. It's not that I didn't get Good and Balanced, it's just that I was doing other stuff when I was feeling like that.

I have nothing more deep and meaningful to say about this than YES. When we both get the time. I have been signed off this week until I see the doc again on Thursday, no idea if that will continue longer. All is flibbly. Maybe a weekend some time now that LARP is extinct for 3 months.

[archangelonline]

Awesome. Give me a shout. :-)

[bodybag_pilgrim]

That second-to-last paragraph is more than a little relief, I admit.

We can all stand up to a certain point, and sometimes how much straw is being carried isn't apparent until the last one is added.

Here's hoping things start turning around for you.

[westslide]

I was totally going to reply to people when I was feeling Good and Balanced. It's not that I didn't get Good and Balanced, it's just that I was doing other stuff when I was feeling like that.

Thanks for the hopes. I got signed off work for the week and I'm trying to chillax and figure out what works in my job and what doesn't, try to find out what needs changing (of the things I can change). Guess we shall see how things go from here.

[bodybag_pilgrim]

I know that feeling, and I support it; one of the best things you can do when G&B is whatever seems likely to keep you G&B longer.

[dango_mew]

Might not be helpful, but when I feel the raging fear, the badness coming up, the lump in the throat I try a few things. I play a song in my head, one I love, one that's upbeat and has good memories, from start to finish. I also try and recall humorous jokes or stories, or picture cute animals. It may not work for everyone, but it's helpful for me to try and distract my brain from thinking of the thing that's getting to me.
Just remember that even if you're going through tough times, even if you get angry at people, people still care and love you all the same. You're the Cath we know and love, and I'm sure everyone appreicates being told about the problems you're going through so we can all be there if you need us.
Also, girly night soon. I'll bring you a bottle of your choice. Sorry it got a little wordy and soppy. Good job on getting that doctors appointment, I hope it goes well. Here if you need anything at all :)

[westslide]

I was totally going to reply to people when I was feeling Good and Balanced. It's not that I didn't get Good and Balanced, it's just that I was doing other stuff when I was feeling like that.

Thanks for this. I got signed off for a week and I'm seeing the doctor again on Thursday. I should try the song, especially as with the weekend gone by I'm now feeling reality LOOMING at me again, and the moments are coming back of me wanting to hide under a desk or blanket. I find it hard to distract as my brain is good at throwing logical arguments at me - it's my JOB, it's my LIFE, I can't just IGNORE it forever - but that logic hasn't come with heart-stopping wibbly before, so I should learn to kick its ass. People have been great. Lovely and supportive, and I love you all very much.

Definitely booze soon.

[doctorpalpatine]

*Nods* This sounds familiar. As the others have already said, you are not alone and we all do what we can to help in whatever way we can. If ever you want to talk, please feel free to get in touch.

[westslide]

I was totally going to reply to people when I was feeling Good and Balanced. It's not that I didn't get Good and Balanced, it's just that I was doing other stuff when I was feeling like that.

Thank you. People have been great, good and supportive, and just the reminders that people have a grasp of what's going on and are there, even if I'm not drawing on them, has been helpful.