i don't know what happend.
he said he wanted space.
i tried my best to give it to him.
it was hard.
they were the most wonderful 2 years of my life and i'll never forget a moment.
now i don't know what to do.
i'm scared and mostly sad.
it hurts.
i'm going to miss him so very much.

that's that i guess.
there is nothing more i can do.

.holy.fuck.
this is the worst night of my life->so far.

i've been thinking a lot.
i've grown tired of being a 22 year old.
i wish i were 60 or 70 and spent my days doing nothing.
i would crochet everything.
and maybe even square dance in my kitchen.

who even has time to go to bars anymore??

Ima creep. I won't deny it ( Read more... )

book buy back.
supervisor calls.
50 cent beers.

academic probation.

i am quite fond of making dolls these days ( Read more... )

i remember when he bought me the moon.

tonight i have a final and i am not prepared.
i'm still feeling sickly.
i have the urge to vomit everytime i move.
so don't move?
it's not that easy.

cookie baking day and winterhaven this saturday!!!

i'm going to see narnia tmw!

my friend sean john comes home this week!

the end is drawing near and i'm getting nervous.
this always happens when i fuck around all semester and have to fight for a passing grade.
good news is that i can pull off d's and still get credit.
bad news is i may not even be able to do that.

i'm wrapping christmas gifts tonight.

bahahahahahahahaa

i might be drinking alone
i might spend money when i can't smoke
i might not pass my classes

i DO love you!