Is it such bad thing to want a few extra minutes of sleep? To be something more than a human alarm clock? I feel so stressed right now. My apartment is filthy and the idea of cleaning it is so daunting. I feel like running away, but how do you run away when you're twenty? Maybe I could hole up my parents tonight so I don't have to face ( Read more... )

I woke up a bit sad this morning. It's funny how that happens. My impulse is to curl up with Grant in the bed all day and maybe have a good cry. But I have to go class and my job that I hate. He has to go to class and the job that he hates. There's just not enough time for me to be indulging in breakdowns.

Well, today I proved that I can get lost all by myself without any help from Judie. I went to drop Grant's brother off at the airport and somehow I ended up on the H.E. Baily Turnpike. I went to Blanchard, or some other town. It was quite annoying.

Whatever happened to romance? It's dead, isn't it? I just wanted some damn flowers.

How did I get so lucky? Grant is the most supportive wonderful person ever. He never tells me that I can't do something; he always encourages me. I'm so happy. I just wish I could see him more. Stupid custard ( Read more... )

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I don't really know what to say. I don't know how to be alone. I feel like I have no personality left, or maybe I just didn't have any in the first place. I'm not really sure how to act in the next couple of days. I guess I was naive about everything, to think that it would all go the way we said it would. I don't know what to do. I'm at a ( Read more... )

Maybe he doesn't want to get married. Maybe that's it. Or maybe he just being Mr. think everything through, Mr. Sensible. But what is wrong with a little impulse now and then? I'm not saying we have to get married right now, but what's wrong with doing something impulsive every now and then? Maybe I'm just freaking out about all this because ( Read more... )

I never thought I would want to get married. At least not as much as I seem to want to. It almost makes me feel like a half-assed feminist because I crave the husband and the babies and the curtains that match the sofa. I dunno. You know, and what if it doesn't happen? Melissa told me she always expected to marry Will and that didn't happen. ( Read more... )

This is just so incredibly hard. My parents told me not to go up to the hospital. In my dad's words, Bruce looks like a concentration victim. Monday night he had a stroke so he's in a coma now. They took him off the defribillator (or some medical term) so it's really only a matter of time. This is the first time I've ever lost anyone close to ( Read more... )

Yeah, I'm sorry, I'm not perfect. I get jealous at the damn time. But of course, you don't. You have your life perfectly planned out and you never get scared. I just get upset so easily. Whatever I do, everyday, I just feel stupid.