it is not wednesday ( Read more... )

i really wander...somewhere in a distant world, i am doing what i choose to do. i am who i have wanted to be. i am not miserable, or regretful, or guilt-ridden there. i am myself still though, and the terrifying self critisicm that milks my will is not all i harbor, there is a place inside me here now that records the activities of my other life ( Read more... )

moving to MD for the summer this year. cannot believe my bladder ( Read more... )

wednesday was my birthday!!!happy day to meeeeeeeeeeee!!! i am now 19 years old. james turned 21 on thursday, funny his day is after mine. anyhoo, happiness to you

this dream isin an email i sentto james ( Read more... )

they don't know about the places i go on my lunch breaks. they have never been there before and i imagine would never go in the future. those kind of people go out into the minimall shopping centers for an hour and a half lunch to eat outside with the other rich yuppies in front of minimum wage paying fod joints while pretending to fulfill their ( Read more... )

i find it hard to get away from the feeling of nausea. why control ( Read more... )

it'snotasmuchfuntopickupthepieces ( Read more... )

hate...work...lonely...boredom...nothing to do here...nothing to look forward to today...must go home and return moms van...hate her much...slow boredom...wasted day...wasted holidays...need food...broke...hate everyone...wish for death...wish for life...waste away in this chair...in this office...in this weather...in this hell...terrible cooljazz ( Read more... )

"can you spare a dime? BROTHER! brother can you spare a dime... brothercanyouspaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaare a di-yee-yime ( Read more... )