what am I, a fucking garbage truck (YongSeo dump)

[warmboys]

I don't know what it is about this pairing that makes it impossible for me to finish a story for them. I mean, it's more understandable in other fandoms, because having a lot of characters can be overwhelming, but there are exactly TWO people involved and I can't even seem to pin them down long enough to write a whole story. Ergh, so much

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[onespringday]

shiver.

that's how i generally feel about your metaphors.

most things are hard to finish in general, i suppose.

[warmboys]

sadly true. you have to either really want to finish them or be so inspired you can't not. the latter almost never happens with me anymore! but I think it's also that when it comes down to it, I don't care enough - the He's Just Not That Into You syndrome T___T

[onespringday]

oh god, it's true! i'm clearly just not into this fic enough. which is heartbreaking, because i want to be into it, but i'm not. there's lots of practical reasons why i don't have enough time/energy to devote to it, but if i'm honest with myself, if i really wanted to, i would make time.

i'm slowly coming to terms with the fact that there are things i do want to do, but they're not the things i want to want to do. that's life, i guess. finding the things you want to do that are acceptable to you. this shouldn't be so hard, i quit a thesis for this reason, because i couldn't enjoy anything i did because i spent all my time feeling guilty about not writing that thesis. same principle, i guess. like checking my flist more than once every three months. har.
yongseo are cute though - sad that they are leaving. :\

[warmboys]

that's exactly it. the things we want to want to do! argh, I feel the same way about the thesis I'm working on right now, except I spend much more time feeling guilty than actually writing. it sounds like you've got self-discipline down though, which is AWESOME.

yeah :(

[shihan_ai]

urgh i know exactly how you feel. every single time i try to write yongseo, i end up turning into jonghwa because they're awesome and bromancy and i love them i mean...

it still confuses me how it's so much easier to nail down like most of suju and half of dbsk but i can't for the love of god write these two properly OTL

[pregnantcigar]

:( maybe it's actually harder to just focus on two people because with suju we can pick and choose who we like more to write about... idkkkkk

[aphoriste]

you scared me for a fucking minute. jsyk. you can't just go around giving people premature heart attacks and then like - it's stuff like this instead. this is - it's honest but like ... you made it sound like you were jumping ship. T^T well, actually, i have no idea if this is a separate thing entirely or if it's one in the same. but anyway.

anywayi understand where you're coming from. i think they're the greatest in canon, but like you said, it can get extremely repetitive. even i know that half the shit i just churned out recently sound alike. but i don't know. this is going to sound wacky beyond reason, but i feel that if i press forward and write them in the proper reality, that it convinces me they are - or they will be - because it's grounded in, er, practicality. sort of. i don't know if this makes sense

[pregnantcigar]

man I don't know what to say to this except it is humbling and awesome to hear something like this from another person. I mean I really felt like you were talking to me and saying things that I was afraid to say to myself (lest they weren't true) and... yeah, I do think that I overthink a lot. I remember in my first Korean tutorial the TA was like "stop trying to be perfect" because I took too much care in getting the pronunciation down that I'd end up talking t h i s s l o w l y. writing is similar for me except I am more willing to take that chance but all the while thinking "this isn't good enough." I also think that we're easier on others than on ourselves, though, so I am probably more aware of my own weaknesses than you are because when you click on something to read you're looking to be amused or moved, not to nitpick (most of the time haha). one of my problems is if I'm working on something and I don't actively like it I just can't bring myself to continue. I can't write myself out of it, usually, unless there's a bigass

[starlitbright]

TELL ME MORE ABOUT THAT LAST ONE

[pregnantcigar]

the show ends so they can't be "together" anymore, but both are in denial about it and try to prolong it as long as possible, until one day one of them realizes that they've been subsisting on fantasy and I don't know how the ending goes but they probably also discover that they don't need that fantasy to exist because nothing is preventing them from being together in reality either... except for a mutual fear of L O V E!!!!! or something like that :D

[emberberry]

I love your imagery so fricken much ;____; and I know how you feel about not being able to finish a story for them! basically I'm nodding along and agreeing with everything you're saying about them (including YongSeo smoothies, tbh, although I'd never explicitly thought of it that way). even if you haven't & don't get around to finishing fics for these two, it's so nice to be able to read snippets like these. I'll always love to read more from you about them (perpetually sadfacing over them being "over"), but I'll definitely take what I can get XD

also, a Virgin Suicides AU would have been AWESOME, and I do love what you have, no matter how short it is :)