It is painful, to sit and share a pot of tea in a quaint Beijing café that looks plucked from a postcard off the streets of Hongdae, and talk civilly like two men who have settled a war, when the war was never fought, never declared, there’d been no casualties, only one lone misfired cannon, the ring in their ears as it popped, but no one felt the burn, nothing set aflame, nothing as the land shifted beneath them and evolved into a body of water and the water transformed into time and time took them and shook them and set them upright again. Heechul’s knees are still wobbly. He’s not an actor. He wasn’t made for this. He’s never been good at this. Give him sulking, fistfights, teeth-gritting, cursing, sitting in front of the computer for hours on end until his ass is numb and his stomach can’t remember the last time it held food because hunger comes in waves and eventually dissipates and even his body knows to stop expecting something that won’t come. Give him the cold living room floor that slowly warms against his back as he
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agh, I don't even know what to say. It means a lot to me whenever someone reads this story, maybe more so than anything else I've written, because of how enormously personal writing this felt--so to hear that it had any sort of emotional effect on another person magnifies that by a thousand ♥ but don't cry! it's all fiction.
who are you really? I feel like meeting you personally and hug you tightly simply to thank you for the stories you've written. They're life-changing, perspective-perplexing stories, and I always need my daily doze of reading your stories. They're idyllic and beautiful like that.
I somehow attach your profile pic here to my mental image of you, but even if the real you is covered in snots I would definitely give you a hug (or a handshake first just in case I'd look creepy like that) :p
buuuut I'm sure you're somewhere on the other part of the world. SO, here's a virtual huuuuggggg ~ *hold tight*
I'm from NY! Is that the other part of the world for you? XD; *hugs back* ♥ ♥ this is the sweetest thing ever. It means so much to hear that someone has been able to enjoy these stories like you. SQUEEZE AWAY :D I am a little awkward with hugs in real life though, haha.
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I somehow attach your profile pic here to my mental image of you, but even if the real you is covered in snots I would definitely give you a hug (or a handshake first just in case I'd look creepy like that) :p
buuuut I'm sure you're somewhere on the other part of the world.
SO, here's a virtual huuuuggggg ~ *hold tight*
p.s: hope I'm not squeezing you too tight :p
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