got a case of a love bipolar, stuck on the roller coaster
This morning started (after surprise pesto-hollandaise poached egg breakfast and unsurprise request to call girlfriend phone call) with my sitting on Earl's bathroom counter, while he hugged me, and told me you always knew this was coming. That I'd simply gotten lucky before now. It makes me think of serendipity. A fortunate accident. Wherein maybe the fortunate part has. Well.
He stayed with me most of the morning, running errands and without any subtly to the plan, pointing out he was making sure I actually ate breakfast and lunch because he didn't think he'd eat anything today if he was in my shoes. But then, over lunch, he also told me he thinks I'm stronger than him. Because he'd never stick around for any of this.
Not in the mean way. I know his opinions of everything. What he thinks of it, thinks I should do. They never change. Honest, but compassionate. Even a little annoyed that I didn't wake him last night when I'd considered it, when I'd really needed someone.
I told him jokingly when we were dressing, for errands and plans before we'd part ways hours to come, he should go find me someone I deserve, and he popped into my bedroom door, smiling bright, with his hands up, saying "Here" before I laughed and corrected about 'to date'. And he said the same thing. How much simpler would that world be? Can I sign up for it?
We picked up new Yankee Candle jars. We went for one to replace the kitchen one, but walked out with three (Rain Forest, Blueberry Scones, and Blackberry Tea). Earl said I shouldn't ever take him in there expecting to leave with one. We wandered through Wal-Mart and Bath & Beyond picking up odds and ends we both needed.
I finally bought another shelf for my bedroom. The top of it will be my altar for littleloveflame's sacred12novices, a year focus with a close, intensive, small knit group of people focused on the Temple of Twelve, and hopefully the shelves will get the RCG Tarot books and Oak Grove runes ones. We'll see how it goes.
I spent the afternoon helping an RCG sister downsize, while talking about a whole lot of things. I inherited a beautiful skirts and some headbands in the process, and had a really lovely time getting to know her better by leaps and bounds. I'm likely going to get to have at the very least another day helping her.
I think I'm going to go work on building my shelf and try to decide if I should leave for the night, since I don't really know if I'm in the right mood to go and I have no real reasons or requests to stay right now either.
He stayed with me most of the morning, running errands and without any subtly to the plan, pointing out he was making sure I actually ate breakfast and lunch because he didn't think he'd eat anything today if he was in my shoes. But then, over lunch, he also told me he thinks I'm stronger than him. Because he'd never stick around for any of this.
Not in the mean way. I know his opinions of everything. What he thinks of it, thinks I should do. They never change. Honest, but compassionate. Even a little annoyed that I didn't wake him last night when I'd considered it, when I'd really needed someone.
I told him jokingly when we were dressing, for errands and plans before we'd part ways hours to come, he should go find me someone I deserve, and he popped into my bedroom door, smiling bright, with his hands up, saying "Here" before I laughed and corrected about 'to date'. And he said the same thing. How much simpler would that world be? Can I sign up for it?
We picked up new Yankee Candle jars. We went for one to replace the kitchen one, but walked out with three (Rain Forest, Blueberry Scones, and Blackberry Tea). Earl said I shouldn't ever take him in there expecting to leave with one. We wandered through Wal-Mart and Bath & Beyond picking up odds and ends we both needed.
I finally bought another shelf for my bedroom. The top of it will be my altar for littleloveflame's sacred12novices, a year focus with a close, intensive, small knit group of people focused on the Temple of Twelve, and hopefully the shelves will get the RCG Tarot books and Oak Grove runes ones. We'll see how it goes.
I spent the afternoon helping an RCG sister downsize, while talking about a whole lot of things. I inherited a beautiful skirts and some headbands in the process, and had a really lovely time getting to know her better by leaps and bounds. I'm likely going to get to have at the very least another day helping her.
I think I'm going to go work on building my shelf and try to decide if I should leave for the night, since I don't really know if I'm in the right mood to go and I have no real reasons or requests to stay right now either.