Raindrops (2/2)
Title: Raindrops (2/2)
Pairing: half broken! Sihan
Rating: G i guess?
Summary: Siwon and Hangeng is in a very awkward relationship. They are still in relationship but they no more love each other but have other lover each. One ordinary of them at home until Hangeng calls. (first is Siwon's POV and second is Hangeng's POV)
Warning: half broken relation of Sihan, Hangeng's POV
A/N: This fic is inspired by Ellegarden's Raindrops but not really relevent to that song...
Today is an unusual holiday as I, one who is healthy and even dense at pain, am ill and in bed. While I am staying in bed, somehow strangely Siwon is remembered. The caring one who made me to sleep in bed when I was trying to go to work while it seemed like a fever cold. Now, we are neither loving each other or broken up but the reason why I think of Siwon before my new lover is probably due to dangerous things called habit and getting used to.
Somehow, I am calling Siwon but he is not receiving. The thought of him refusing me suddenly come to my mind. I don't want to lose and I try one more time. Once again. Calling for the last time and Siwon receives. Even though I am the one who called, I am surprised and stare the wall with my eyes big while holding the phone,
[Hello?]
Siwon's voice is heard. To hide the surprised and awkward situation just before, I quickly talk back to Siwon.
"Siwon, what are you doing?"
I am only wishing to not recognized my weird voice, he seems like he doesn't recognize thankfully. It is lucky but I can't stop comparing with the past. Like 'back then he knew so well...'
[Oh.. I'm at home. I have just came back from work and what about you, hyung?]
Just like his calm voice, I speak while pretending to be calm.
"Ah, me? At home, too. Playing with DuoDuo. If you have just came back from work then take a shower and rest. If you do not care about your health because you think it's fine right now, you would regret."
What am I talking? I am not playing with DuoDuo for sure. DueDue is currently sleeping next to me.
[Ah.. Yeah.]
"Then I'm going to hang up?"
[Yeah. Hyung has to rest as well.]
"Yes, bye."
If I talk any longer, he might recognize my current condition so I hang up. Siwon is still the same. Ah no, he no longer calls me as 'Gengie hyung'. Because there were lots of hyungs he knew and he didn't want to call even his lover as just hyung, Siwon always added my nickname in front like a special representation. It is quite sad that I will be called like that with that voice no more. Also, I hate my selfishness which gets those minds. Already having another person, both Siwon and me. I am wanting two person's love.
I lay down on bed and close my eyes. I compare the memories with Siwon to memories with my new love. I compare Siwon's everything to new love's everything. Siwon is a guy, she is a woman. Siwon is reliable while she is gentle yet strong. Siwon is Christian, she is atheist. Love with Siwon is rejected in the society when the love with her is accepted. The relationship with Siwon is secret to my mother, the relationship with her is known to my mother. And love with Siwon is past tense, love with her is present tense. I am already familiar with Siwon and getting familiar with her.
I know fully well why I am unable to tell Siwon to break up. I am afraid. Whether the memories with Siwon will be useless from the start of the relationship. The first day when Siwon held my hand shyly, the first kiss which I had to start first, the day we were annoyed so much of the fact that there is serious traffic jam while we were going to the holiday. The way back home fully wet by rain due to the wrong weather broadcast, I am afraid that everything will be degraded into something which will scatter into nothing. When this fear stops, the strange relationship between Siwon and me will stop as well. Like raindrops falling to the ground from the sky and scatter into little pieces and disappear.
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Yeah I'm finally finished translating this from my mother tougue and made an upload!!!
Sorry for the one and only reader who wanted more bright Sihan... Uh.. Maybe I'll write one later?
Anyone, tell me if you want any!!!
Comment is welcomed!
Pairing: half broken! Sihan
Rating: G i guess?
Summary: Siwon and Hangeng is in a very awkward relationship. They are still in relationship but they no more love each other but have other lover each. One ordinary of them at home until Hangeng calls. (first is Siwon's POV and second is Hangeng's POV)
Warning: half broken relation of Sihan, Hangeng's POV
A/N: This fic is inspired by Ellegarden's Raindrops but not really relevent to that song...
Today is an unusual holiday as I, one who is healthy and even dense at pain, am ill and in bed. While I am staying in bed, somehow strangely Siwon is remembered. The caring one who made me to sleep in bed when I was trying to go to work while it seemed like a fever cold. Now, we are neither loving each other or broken up but the reason why I think of Siwon before my new lover is probably due to dangerous things called habit and getting used to.
Somehow, I am calling Siwon but he is not receiving. The thought of him refusing me suddenly come to my mind. I don't want to lose and I try one more time. Once again. Calling for the last time and Siwon receives. Even though I am the one who called, I am surprised and stare the wall with my eyes big while holding the phone,
[Hello?]
Siwon's voice is heard. To hide the surprised and awkward situation just before, I quickly talk back to Siwon.
"Siwon, what are you doing?"
I am only wishing to not recognized my weird voice, he seems like he doesn't recognize thankfully. It is lucky but I can't stop comparing with the past. Like 'back then he knew so well...'
[Oh.. I'm at home. I have just came back from work and what about you, hyung?]
Just like his calm voice, I speak while pretending to be calm.
"Ah, me? At home, too. Playing with DuoDuo. If you have just came back from work then take a shower and rest. If you do not care about your health because you think it's fine right now, you would regret."
What am I talking? I am not playing with DuoDuo for sure. DueDue is currently sleeping next to me.
[Ah.. Yeah.]
"Then I'm going to hang up?"
[Yeah. Hyung has to rest as well.]
"Yes, bye."
If I talk any longer, he might recognize my current condition so I hang up. Siwon is still the same. Ah no, he no longer calls me as 'Gengie hyung'. Because there were lots of hyungs he knew and he didn't want to call even his lover as just hyung, Siwon always added my nickname in front like a special representation. It is quite sad that I will be called like that with that voice no more. Also, I hate my selfishness which gets those minds. Already having another person, both Siwon and me. I am wanting two person's love.
I lay down on bed and close my eyes. I compare the memories with Siwon to memories with my new love. I compare Siwon's everything to new love's everything. Siwon is a guy, she is a woman. Siwon is reliable while she is gentle yet strong. Siwon is Christian, she is atheist. Love with Siwon is rejected in the society when the love with her is accepted. The relationship with Siwon is secret to my mother, the relationship with her is known to my mother. And love with Siwon is past tense, love with her is present tense. I am already familiar with Siwon and getting familiar with her.
I know fully well why I am unable to tell Siwon to break up. I am afraid. Whether the memories with Siwon will be useless from the start of the relationship. The first day when Siwon held my hand shyly, the first kiss which I had to start first, the day we were annoyed so much of the fact that there is serious traffic jam while we were going to the holiday. The way back home fully wet by rain due to the wrong weather broadcast, I am afraid that everything will be degraded into something which will scatter into nothing. When this fear stops, the strange relationship between Siwon and me will stop as well. Like raindrops falling to the ground from the sky and scatter into little pieces and disappear.
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Yeah I'm finally finished translating this from my mother tougue and made an upload!!!
Sorry for the one and only reader who wanted more bright Sihan... Uh.. Maybe I'll write one later?
Anyone, tell me if you want any!!!
Comment is welcomed!