none of my colleges are right, none are perfect, im not going to get in any of them, ill be stuck here for another year waiting for my life to start and next thing i know ill be fifty with 3 kids still waiting for life! why do i want to act, why dont i just want to manage my dads business and get married like normal people??!?!why arent i wildly ( Read more... )

the day is shitty, but i have thai food and coffee so its better then before. i dont understand how the world could be so ignorant, how people evolved to get us to this point, completely screwed and running ourselves into the ground. its human nature and we do it to ourselves the majority of the time. but i've said it before and ill say it again ( Read more... )

so today i rushed home from school, got 2 huge cups of coffee and did 2 labs, oedipus hw, 3 intro to film essays, and studied for the huge math test that i HAVE to do well on. and then i attempted to skateboard while learning things. i terrfied and not secure about how ill do on the test, everything else is sucky, ive been working for hours and ( Read more... )

goddammit i fuckin hate high school abnd everyone and goddammit fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck. im so fuckin angry and listening to screamo is supposed to make it better doesnt make it better even though it usually does and mellow music doesnt help either and im so goddammit tired of pointless bullshit i need to move on in my life instead of just waiting for ( Read more... )

i have a cold. it is an unhappy cold, a cold which makes me unhappy ( Read more... )

i like it when my house is empty so i can scream and yell and scream and punch the walls till my fingernails bleed and my knuckles crush and my fingers break...
it hurts to type and my hands are throbbing.
but a little of the aggression has gone...

- assholes, just all around the world people who are unnecessarily mean to people they dont even know and like to make things a little bit harder for the rest of us ( Read more... )

today sucks shit. i hate school, its depressing and disgusting outside, everyone is unhappy but its to be expected. the service yesterday was as good as can be expected. i like jewish services more then i like christian ones. its alot more personal when friends and family speak, also tis the only jewish funeral ive ever been to, and they played ( Read more... )

the concept of death shouldnt be so new to me now, but everytime, it just blows me away. someone who i saw less then 48 hours ago, that i spoke to and touched and laughed with is gone. he was 15, it hardly seems fair or reasonable, but nothing is nowadays. nothing but the constant battle to live your life and be as happy as you can ( Read more... )

im highly agitated boardering on temporary insanity and i may just stab my dads girlfriend, it was nice knowing you all....
jail is going to solve all my problems according to dan