I Can't Do Nothin' Right

[walkertxkitty]

o/` "Everyday I fight a war against the mirror
I can't take the person staring back at me
I'm a hazard to myself

Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy" o/`

-- "Don't Let Me Get Me" performed by Pink

This is a rare public entry in order to 'clean up' a few details about diagenou's entry for therealljidol this week. When the topic prompt came up, he talked it

Comments

[shadowwolf13]

Even before reading this ... I thought the kid should have had the crap beat out of him. Rude is rude and can be trained away. Age should not allow rudeness.

Of course I'm a child-free freak who doesn't like kids, so wha do I know? ;)

[walkertxkitty]

Y'know, I'm just...tired. My entries never get read because people read in alphabetical order. When they do get read, half the comments can't be unscreened because they're rude.

I'm not exactly child-free. Since Dee has children, I have children. That's how it works in Cajun culture. But if one of his cousins had tried even the first bit of rudeness, it would have been corrected firmly and an apology made.

People are missing the point but then, I'm finding that most people don't think that the handicapped have any kind of rights in the first place.

When I finally have the money, a friend is making me a kitty-yote ears and a tail to attach to the wheelchair. I've already ordered the hand tooled leather collar and leash.

If they're going to stare, I'm going to give them something to stare at, damnit.

[sweeny_todd]

I read yours. You are one of my favourite writers - I think I have said before you generally have a very gentle, which I really enjoy.

Even befor reading your comments on Diagenou's entry, I was in his favour. I am fat, and people (adults, kids) think they can say whatever they want. And my opinion (which has taken me quite a few years to be able to articulate ^_^) is that by saing nothing, we passively endorse whatever behaviour it is we are witnessing.

I am sorry you experienced this, and I am gladd you had Dee there.

[walkertxkitty]

Thank you. I know people tend to go for the exciting life dramas, but....I don't really feel like concentrating on the negative parts of my life right now. I'm trying to see only good things because that's what keeps me going, day to day and sometimes minute to minute. I don't think people realize just how badly chemotherapy tears you up; it's not just hair loss and looking cute and frail. I literally don't know if I'll wake up the next morning sometimes

[crssafox]

I'm sorry, but ten years old is darn well old enough to know better. The kid knew what he was saying and his parents should've shut him up. That kind of behavior "might be" understandable (never "acceptable"!) from a child of three or maybe even four years of age. Any older than that and they should have better manners and certainly not follow someone around a store just because they want to stare, let alone touch someone they don't know.

I'm sorry you had to deal with that. I'm glad you've found alternate sources to WalMart, it's a terrible place to have to venture.

[walkertxkitty]

Over three is old enough to know basics. If he hadn't been following us around the store, I'd have been much less offended. Some children can't help wondering at people who look different than what they see around them all the time

[walkertxkitty]

I'm guessing that the people who think Dee made the incident up have never had to shop in the rural South (you know what it's like because you used to work in downtown St. Augustine).

Unfortunately, I have yet to find a market for medications :D so we still have to venture to Wal-Mart on occasion. Also, for some reason the quality of their beef and pork has been better than Publix's lately so we get what meat we need there.

Honestly, I don't know what they expected. You've never met him because his work always interfered but I think even you know how volatile Dee can be. It's definitely like him to have gone off like that, especially in that situation.

[basric]

I hope you posted this in the green room

[walkertxkitty]

I posted a link to it, not that it mattered. Dee and I are apparently morons (or, depending on how you look at it, we don't exist and are sock puppets of one another) and that's that.

I shouldn't have had to explain at all. There's just really no excuse for someone to behave that way. I don't think that people need all the details to grasp the fact that this kind of behavior is harmful and hurtful. If you excuse it at that level, where does it stop? It seems to me awfully unfair to excuse it to such an age and then suddenly expect the child to stop because at some magical number it MAY no longer be all right...or worse still, the kid learns that he can do that and nothing will happen to him.

[basric]

I truly hate trolls. What's this chicks problem with you anyway? Did she try to sleep with Dee and he rejected her so she does this hate campaign. I'm sorry that both of you had to endure this kind of treatment. Apparently from her posts she has done this to you before. I feel Gary should have been firmer about this, he was a little wishy washy with adults should deal, I mean if that happens then we wouldn't need police or trauma nurses. I agree with you this is a writing competition not a judge what is written.

Anyway don't let the, excuse me, BASTARDS get you down.

[walkertxkitty]

Actually, it's the opposite issue. At one point in time she and her sex offender boyfriend thought they were going to have a polyamorous relationship with Dorie. The woman lives a sad life built on bad choices and obviously feels trapped enough by them that she's lashing out at whomever she can reach

[beldar]

I'm pretty sure if that had happened to us, Snack and I would be in jail for beating that kid into a coma. Totally not missing living in Dixie right now.

[walkertxkitty]

Dee held his temper because I asked him to do so. He only lost it when I could no longer do so (I was crying too hard). I wish this was an isolated incident, but it's not.

What I AM going to do is get a friend to make me kitty-yote ears to wear and a tail for the back of the power chair. I am going to buy myself a shirt from the No Pity site which says "Keep Staring, I Might Do a Trick" and wear that.

Dee can have the leash which will go to the hand tooled leather collar I already had designed. If they're going to stare, then by the gods there should be something to stare at!

[michikatinski]

No, it absolutely was NOT okay "just because he was a kid."

You were violated, it was wrong, and you deserve justice, not a backlash.

I'm so sorry this happened to you.

I know you hardly know me, but if there's anything I can do in addition to voting, let me know.

[walkertxkitty]

It embarrasses me that things went as far as they did.

As he mentioned earlier today, it's kind of hard for Dee to answer comments and charges that he doesn't exist when he's driving. I have an iPhone and can check such things; I often do because if I HAVE to go out, it always induces a sense of rising panic and doom these days. Being able to read things and respond on the iPhone also makes it easier on me on the days when I can't get out of bed or off the couch (I don't own a working laptop any more, just a desktop and it's in my office at the other end of the house).

I appreciate the offer; as I'm confined mostly to the house these days and not always by choice (it's getting increasingly harder to get out as my body falls apart) it's always nice to have another friend. I didn't think you would mind if I did friend you. Besides, it says you like religious conversations.

So do I.