Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK.

So what in the hell is the point then?

You can't live on morals alone goddamnit.

Accepted into my MFA program.

Fuck. Yes.

The worst part about always being the second choice is that you never feel like you really deserve what you have gotten. But, sometimes, if you want something, someone, some way bad enough, it almost feels like none of that matters. And then you're second again, again, again.... Call it self-loathing? It sure breeds an apathy, fierce.

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I am so damn tired of this cold in my apartment and these cold acquaintances. I am tired of the mess in my kitchen and my head, and the pathetic distractions I let myself get into, little fantasies of an easier world. Is that why I'm an actor? The escapism? Fantasy doesn't ever last, but you can sure lie to yourself for a long while. It just ( Read more... )

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turnitoffturnitoffturnitoffturnitoffturnitoff
can't.
TURNITOFF.
...cant.

I have been: flattered, manipulated, catered to, rebelled against, hugged, kissed, fucked, screwed over, loved, hated, appealed to, withdrawn, found, held accountable, wronged, helped, lost, talked of, heard of, sought, avoided, chosen, culled, denied, approved, bought, sold, restrained, set at liberty, regulated, woken, driven, aware, feared, ( Read more... )

Holy fucking shit. Holy SHIT.

I am officially cast in a show to be directed by Tina Packer.

Woah... woah woah woah woah.
Frikin' sweet.

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