A very very hard post for me to make

[vulgarweed]

haven't been around much, because a week ago today, after 10 wonderful years together my dear sweet impish tortie cat Madimi left me suddenly and unexpectedly

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[mundungus42]

*hugs you tightly* Deepest condolences. Losing a beloved pet cuts so very deeply. I'm glad you have a good support network, but the first weeks are awful, and I know there's not much e-hugs from someone you've never met can do, but I have been where you are and am so very sorry for your loss.

I don't know if this will help you, but when I lost my scruffy Giovanni, I used my writer's notebook to record every memory of him that I could. It was a while before I could revisit it, but those visceral details are a comfort, even though it's excruciating when you're recounting them on the heels of such a big loss.

Here's wishing you space to grieve and the comfort of ten years of sweet kitty memories. In time, it will hurt less to remember them. We carry them with us in our hearts, always.

[vulgarweed]

Thank you so very much. I'm sorry it took me so long to reply. This is very so difficult, and I appreciate your e-hugs more than I can say.

That is a marvelous thing about your sweet Giovanni, and I'm doing that! I started a little journal that's specifically about Madimi memories and all the funny things she used to do. I add to it every day. It's painful but it's definitely helping, I think? One of the worst things about losing someone is the gradual forgetting.

[okapi1895]

So sorry for your loss and the tough times ahead.

[vulgarweed]

Thank you so much! One day at a time, dragging myself through.

[anna_wing]

I am so very sorry. Please accept my condolences.
Sorrow is the price that we pay for love. We may be willing to pay it, but we don't really have a choice, and the price is still always very high.

[vulgarweed]

Thank you so much! Yes - the price is so very high, and yet somehow, it's worth it. I'd give almost anything to not be going through this pain...except not having known her in the first place. Not that. I won't give up that.

[azulkan2]

So sorry for your loss.

[vulgarweed]

Thank you so much! :(

[orpheus_samhain]

*hugs* The only cure is another cat.

[vulgarweed]

Well I know that's true. I'm not ready, won't be for quite a while. But someday, another little someone will come along and tell me that I'm ready.