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[voodoodeath]

i want friends. like real friends.
something or ones that i can reach out to.
talk to. not worry about.

i find myself jealous of others with that.
isnt that just tacky.

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[stray26kitten]

I know.
I know how you feel.
I can understand being jealous, of something you wish you could have, and trying and failing, and trying some more.
Its frustrating.
I've learned how to control most of my jealousy. You may not think of me as the "jealous type" but I am a very jealous person. I've learned to manage it and not attack people whom I feel jealous of... It took me a long time to get over that, but once I realized that it hurts me more, then thats when I tried to change.....

I takes time to build relationships and yeah it sux when you get fucked in the end, but everyone is not bad.
Not everyone will lie behind your back..
There are good people out there...
And instead of closing myself up because of the few or many that have betrayed or hurt me in the past, I continue to search for the true.
Its hard, I have trust issues, you know that... its just hard...
I sympathize

[voodoodeath]

you have never struck me as jealous.
too shay :D

im not either. honestly im not. i have found myself jealous of two things lately. people with a normal relationship. ie like living together and people with friends. like real friends. people that can get together and when they cant ... its not a big deal. im not speaking about anything specific.

i just want that. it makes me miss highschool. cause since that. how do you make friends. without any friends to make friends of friends with.

its beyond frustrating. but your right. probably. what sparked this was a movie. thats how silly it is.

it does take time to build a relationship. but. if i have nothing to build off of. how do i do that

ill be fine. ill bounce back. pre all this. i havent felt like ive had a real friend [other than jason] or even utah before this. in a long time. i do maintain a few on the phone. im just a brat. :D

[voodoodeath]

also its because my birthday is in thirteen days. yeah ...

[miss_brightside]

I totally understand how you feel.
Because i feel the same way these days.
it so lonely most days. But.....
at least we got our MENS! lol.
miss ya.