SOMEONE SHOOT ME.

[viho]

Why in the world do I read his livejournal? All it does is make me cry and want to call him. I feel pathetic and useless. It really hurts losing that "one person" you have told your life to. Its all my fault anyways. Fuck. I hate this. What am I supposed to do. Is there ANY WAY to get it back? no. Don't bother. Karma just finally came back and bit

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[cykochild413]

I wish it would be easier for you to walk away. But one way or another you must. That is just the way of things. It seems terrible now, but in several years it will be easy, and I will just be that boy from highschool.

Tom.

[viho]

No, You will always be my golden haired boy. I've talked to so many people, and it still hasn't changed a thing. You are, and always will be my best friend, my closest companion, and the one person I always felt safe around. I know you want to push me away but I refuse to let it go in my mind. And even if years from now I still don't have you back, so be it. You meant more to me than to just shrug my shoulders and let it go. I have done my best to not call you... or at least text you. I've been crying with my telephone in hand just wanting to press the call button, knowing you probably wouldn't pick up. Which is why I haven't. I am doing my best to respect your wishes because I want you to be happy. With or without me as your friend. It just hurts. It always will. It just sux that it had to end this way... but I am fully aware that it is all my fault.

As mentioned before. Karma Sux.

<3 Stephanie Lynne Lewis

Re: Tom.

[cykochild413]

Hun I can't keep doing this. Like I've said before it's my duty to help you. But I can't hear your voice or see your face. All of those things rushing back to me will only work to destroy me. I can not allow false hopes or hollow drams anymore. You have your prize, your life. Let that be. Live for God's sake, and let what is, and can not change, lie.