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Title: West of Her Spine
Vidder:
sweetestdrainFandom: Dexter
Link to vid:
On LJ.Warnings: Spoilers for season one. Wayyy too many screen caps. Some blood, nudity, and chopped-up prostitutes violence.
Commentary by: me,
sweetestdrain INSPIRATION FOR VID
I stumbled across the song "West of Her Spine" on
audiography during a theme week focusing on lyrics. The lyrics certainly do make it an interesting, slightly bizarre love song, and it wasn't hard for me to make the leap from such similes as "her hair spills over like frayed ends of twine" to the Icetruck Killer scenes in Dexter. (Although that probably says more about my brain than anything else.)
This vid really began as an experiment. I was in the midst of a vidding dry spell at the time, and this song, with its fairly slow pace and awkward twang, was different than any song I'd vidded before. I knew from the beginning that I wanted to play around with erratic cuts during the murder of the prostitute, and when I continued listening to the lyrics, Rudy/Brian's POV (and the mindfuckery thereof) fell into place very quickly. The three-part structure of the vid, which I'll divide neatly into sections for your reading pleasure below, also became obvious at this point. Yup: this vid would leap into the mind of a serial killer and show each of his "loves" -- first, fakery (with the desire for Dexter underlying the deception), then secondly tackling the serial killer urge head-on, and lastly, showing Brian's truest love and greatest pursuit: his brother, the only other person that could possibly understand him.
You're going to be completely spoiled for the first season of Dexter, by the way. Sorry!
I had the vid almost completely drafted before I showed it to anyone. I think
absolutedestiny was the first person to see it? A lucky thing, too, as he assured me that my crazy brain was doing something interesting rather than something ridiculous. After I finished the dratted thing, I decided to submit it to the 2007 VividCon Premieres show. More on that later.
PART ZERO: THE CREDITS
This is my vid! And this is my fridge.
I am notoriously crappy at titles and credits. It was
absolutedestiny's idea to play off the bait-and-switch I'd already established in the vid and make the titles do work for that effect, too. As a result, they're very happy and romantic and playful. There are hearts and pink and even a freaking rainbow (which I painted using colors of nail polish similar to those used by the Icetruck Killer -- no, really, look!
-- but that's a subtle detail). At the same time, though, the titles are tacked up on a freezer, which ties into Rudy's methods of killing (and later, communication).
absolutedestiny also helped me out by adding the slightly darkened edges to this clip; this worked well on a few fronts: to help the footage match the other source better, to add a slightly ominous note to the visuals of the opening shot, and to hide the piles of cookbooks and crap around my fridge.
PART ONE: DEB HONEY, NO
00:10-0:28
She asked me to work on that knot/Now I've been at that coal face some time
I've been trying to untie that knot/I'm trying to work it to a soft spot and lie there a while
Right away, we establish Deb as the subject of the vid (for now) and Rudy as the speaker. I purposely chose these opening clips for the mood they conveyed; the shots are close-up and very intimate, and the color/lighting is subdued and full of blues, purples, and a few deep reds. Romantic, yet somber. We see the sexual element of the relationship, but the focus is more on the tenderness of the act and its afterglow. Rudy kisses Deb's leg. Deb displays emotional vulnerability -- in one of the clips, she covers Rudy's eyes, not fully comfortable with him seeing her like this.
At this point, if you know nothing of Dexter, it's clear what's going on. The woman has asked him to "work on that knot"; to help her accept this intimacy, to become comfortable being so close to another person. If you do know the show -- well. Shit's fucked up. And here comes the canon-based reading: from Rudy's perspective, Deb is a knot that must be untied. She's a puzzle. He is manipulating her in order to gain access to Dexter.
In this verse, I also started hinting toward the "reveal" by choosing clips that have a distinctly uncomfortable feel. The long shot of Rudy and Deb on the bed is jarring; until now, the camera has been fairly close to them. By drawing back, we as viewers lose the intimacy that was established in the beginning.
And of course, the first west of her spine (00:34) marks a shot of Deb in bed, her appearance reminiscent of the Icetruck Killer's arrangements, as Rudy's shadow falls across her.
00:37-00:44
Now you'd think that I could untie that knot/I'm the one who put it there in the first place
Rudy creates uncertainty in Deb, while he himself begins to tire of the charade. There's a push and pull in Rudy's movements -- in one clip he gives Deb a romantic kiss, in the next he shies away. The lighting has changed, and in a few clips Deb is lit harshly from overhead. Something is happening. This is supported by other clips: Rudy takes a second too long to smile; he pulls away from Deb during sex -- and generally, he is sort of a creepster.
00:53-01:05
Well I've a vague idea/but it was under the pale moonlight
And I was south of her shoulder/and west of her spine
Oops.
Until this point in the vid, disregarding my visual hints (which might be easy to miss if one is unfamiliar with the source), things have been fairly lovey-dovey. Now the pieces come together. It's not the love of a good woman that Rudy -- or rather, Brian -- is after. Nope, he's in it for the killin'. (And for Dexter.) This is where the vid makes a major shift in tone and focus; there's another shift later on, but by that point, Brian has been established as a serial killer and Not a Nice Fellow, so it doesn't create quite the same impact. For the first third of the vid, although we're seeing it from Brian's POV, we only "know" as much as Deb knows. I chose a few close-up shots of her face to help express her realization that something's not right -- and then, that something's REALLY not right.
PART TWO: RUDY/BRIAN + MURDER = OTP
1:22-1:43
Sometimes early in the morning/I watch her breathing rise and fall
I've spilled in drunk beside her/in the stillness of dawn
In the show, we see the carefully arranged murders of the Icetruck Killer long before we see Brian in action. In the vid, however, I decided we had to see the scene of the prostitute, with Brian's meticulously inked lines, right before a shot of one of the crime scenes. This is one of the first sequences I envisioned when I first began planning the vid. I cut very erratically, and also messed with the sequence of events, in order to create dissonance and to present this murder as both pleasurable (for Brian) and horrifying (for us).
1:44-1:52
And I see how her hair spills over/like frayed ends of twine
Hi literalism! We see actual hair spilling over, we see actual twine. I suspect the songwriter(s) would be horrified if they knew how I chose to visually interpret their lyrics here.
1:53-1:59
All wild and wrapped around her/like these wandering arms of mine
Brian gets creative and "wanders" into killing not just his victims of choice, but the individuals who are interfering with his pursuit of Dexter.
And now...
PART THREE: BROTHERLY LOVE
2:00-2:12
Well I hope they find a soft spot/where I can lie for a while
Just south of her shoulder/and west of her spine
Enter Dexter.
We don't see any of Dexter, aside from maybe a brief shot of an arm, until this point in the vid. First, we are introduced to Dexter from Brian's childhood memories of him -- and those flashbacks are in black-and-white to further differentiate them from present-day footage -- then the adult Dexter strides directly toward the camera, entering the vid headfirst. Charging in, or being led to the bait?
And the creepy bridge! I want to pause here and talk about what a geek I am the way this vid uses continuation of internal motion and other visual connections (such as shape, color, etc.) between clips. Or here, let me show you.
Some moments are subtle.
Dexter moves right, into the motion of the opening door.
Brian moves left, into the motion of Dexter stepping away.
(It was important that in moments like this, the two characters essentially shift places between clips -- creating not only visual interest but alluding ever-so-vaguely to the inevitable opposition between them.)
This was a moment that made me laugh way too hard: Brian lurches to the left, right into the carefully timed steps of the prostitute.
One of my favorite sequences in the vid is the following series of clips.
Brian steps into the freezer with the prostitute's body...
...and Dexter opens his own freezer to find the body of the Barbie doll that Brian has left for him...
...which connects with the same Barbie sitting by Brian's laptop...
...the shape of which connects with the angle of the hanging paper in the next clip.
Back to the vid. Brian begins to put the moves on Dexter, so to speak, while "tracing back along the twine" that connects them: family, blood, murder, psychosis...
2:44-2:56
It's here I'll rest my chin/and breathe her deep and smile
For I think I've found a soft spot/and I'll lie here a while
For Brian, stalking is love.
2:58-3:04
It's here I'll raise my flag/and claim this land as mine
Originally, I had the clip of Brian raising the knife in a completely different spot. For some reason, I was scared of being too literal. Thank goodness for my beta, who pointed out to me that really, it would be just literal enough. The knife is Brian's flag, death is what he is, and by raising it -- both literally and figuratively -- he is making a stand and announcing his intentions to Dexter. It might be said that in much of this vid (and the show?), he's wooing him. (I know I keep using romantic phrasing to describe Brian's pursuit of Dexter, but it really seems most appropriate. See more on this later.)
3:05-3:12
Just south of her shoulder/and west of her spine
Dexter takes Brian's hand and we bleed back to home. (And the violence that stole it away.) Return to roots: where it all began.
The weird ending laugh on the recording completely befuddled me at first. I had no idea what to do with it -- should I cut it? It seemed out of place for such a sweet love song. But then, I realized that I was over-thinking it for no reason. After all, I wasn't making a sweet vid, was I? I decided to end with Brian and Dexter's "birth" in blood. A grisly joke, to be sure.
The shift from black-and-white to color works visually with the sound of the laugh, and also implies that this isn't a flashback -- in many ways, this is the very present moment that Brian is still living, and will continue to live for the rest of his -- well, he dies. But not in this vid.
That was another deliberate choice on my part. In an earlier draft, I ended with Brian's death at Dexter's hand, but upon rewatch, it just wasn't right. The rest of the narrative is so firmly entrenched in his mind that I couldn't break from his perspective without being untrue to the vid itself. And so, Brian's story ends as Brian would have wanted it to end -- happily, (at least for a serial killer), and with his brother by his side.
OTHER TRIVIA:
Number of times doors open or close in the vid: 12. (Yay for visual motifs!)
Number of people killed or threatened in the vid by POV character: 6. (Pretty tame compared to the show!)
Number of times someone has asked whether this is a slash vid: at least 4. My basic stance is that while the vid is ultimately a love story -- a sick and wrong one, but still -- it's not any more incestuous than the show is. Brian desires a psychopath's version of intimacy, companionship, and I think, to some extent, ownership. The relationship as presented in the vid is only as sexual as any between a serial killer and his long-lost serial killer brother would be. Not that I have met many of them.
Number of comments received from 14-year-old-girls who complimented "the part with the boy and girl cuz that was romantic": 1. (Well, technically 6, but they were all from the same 14-year-old. Oh, youth.)
AUDIENCE RECEPTION
There was some controversy at the VividCon where this vid premiered because of my choice not to introduce the fandom in a title card. Some members of the audience were unfamiliar with this, a newer fandom (and didn't recognize the main character of the vid, who is not the main character of the show), and were caught off guard by the vid's shift in focus from "love" to murder. I had assumed that the vid's blurb in the program book, in which the fandom is listed, would be enough to tip off the audience to the fact that Something Is Not Right Here, but not everyone is able to refer to the program book in the dark vidshow room. As the vidder, I am of course biased; I believe that to include anything as a "warning" in the vid itself would have created a much different effect upon its viewing, and would have distracted heavily from the vid's conceit.
That being said, I had no idea of the splash West of Her Spine would make at VividCon Premieres and the subsequent in-depth vid review. I knew that some people wouldn't be familiar with the show, and would experience the vid in a different way than people who had -- but I didn't realize how many people hadn't seen the show or even really heard of it (a much higher percentage than at subsequent Vividcons), and how shocking the turn would be for those who were expecting a sappy love story. Hearing the wide range of reactions was really interesting, rather surreal, and in a way, flattering to my skills as a vidder. I mean, hell, if I could upset that many people, I must be doing something right!
However, I also received -- and still receive! -- more positive comments than negative ones, even from people who don't have very much knowledge of Dexter. I think that a lot of the effect that West of Her Spine had in Premieres that year was dependent on the context of the vidshow viewing experience, and possibly exacerbated by the overall mood created by the show's playlist. Definitely food for further thought and analysis -- but perhaps not right now.
FINAL THOUGHTS
First of all? Thank you for reading my disjointed blather. I wasn't able to access my old storyboards and beta notes for this vid, so I feel certain I've left something out. If there are any questions about something I haven't (or have) covered in here, ask away! I'd be glad to talk about craft, structure, intent, whatever. I'm glad that people are still somewhat interested in this vid, even years later. It's definitely one of the vids I'm proudest of.
In addition, making this vid helped me learn that when I get a crazy idea that probably shouldn't work, I should grab it and run with it, because it'll probably turn out fairly... interesting. (Or won't turn out at all. Ask me sometime about my unfinished Jack/Doctor Torchwood vid to Tom Lehrer's "I Hold Your Hand In Mine." Speaking of dismemberment and all.)
Thanks again for reading, and thanks to
braver_creature for a hilarious and insightful commentary that blows mine out of the water, and thank you to
vid_commentary for giving me the chance to geek out over my work!