Fic: Knowledge (Logan) PG-13
Title: Knowledge (3/?)
Author: ajeanne05
Pairing/Character: Logan
Word Count: 1,467
Rating: PG-13
Summary: AU fic. What if Logan had suspected Aaron of killing Lilly all along?
Spoilers: Season 1
Warnings: mild language
Disclaimer: Not my property.
Earlier Sections: 1 2
Logan strides slowly forward trying not to visibly limp. The sun is painfully bright and he's not sure whether he's pissed that the weather is mockingly nice today (Lilly would have spent a least part of the day sunbathing in a delightfully skimpy bikini) or whether he finds it fitting because Lilly burned just as bright. Either way, he's thankful for the excuse to wear sunglasses. He has a hell of a hangover and he's pretty sure he looks like complete shit.
Logan enters the church and blinks as his eyes adjust to the dimmer light, but he doesn't remove his shades. He looks around feeling a little lost. He wants to sit with the Kanes but he's not family, not really. His parents backed out of coming at the last minute. Lynn was in bed nursing a hangover of her own and Aaron had gotten a call from his publicist. Of course, the official story is that Lynn caught a particularly nasty strain of the flu and that Aaron was home caring for her. Not that Logan wants them there, although he wouldn't have minded too much if his mother came. During his second scan of the room he spots a glimpse of gold poking out from the crook of a man's elbow, Veronica.
All Logan can see of her is the crown of her head, but he can somehow tell she's crying. He wonders if it's ok for him to sit with her. He has not spoken to Veronica since before... before he left for TJ. He has not spoken to either Duncan or Veronica, actually. Logan had tried calling Duncan a few times but Celeste wouldn't put him on the phone and Duncan did not call back. Logan had received a couple calls from Veronica but he didn't answer them. He meant to call her back but, well, he was too much of a pussy. The thought of listening to the young blonde's tears and anguish when he couldn't do anything to make it better terrified him. This wasn't something he could fix by threatening her bully or slipping a new CD into her bag.
Someone squeezes past him and he realizes that he's still standing in the doorway. He hesitantly approaches Veronica and her father and sits in the pew a few feet from them. He can now see that Veronica is not only crying into Keith's suit but is clutching a sunflower. He wants to question her but can not seem to make any noise so he just studies her and hopes that she notices him soon. Logan loved to tease her about her tiny stature but she had never seemed quite so small to him before. She was shrunken with grief and fear and curled up, half in her father's lap, looking much too young and fragile.
Keith had glanced at Logan when he slid into the pew and Logan involuntarily stiffened. Being around Keith had always made him a tad nervous and being forced to see Keith as Sheriff Mars, not just Veronica's father, was not helping. Logan half expected Keith to tell him to sit somewhere else but he merely turned his attention back to his daughter. Lianne was nowhere in sight. Maybe she was suffering from the same flu strain as Lynn.
Feeling the eyes boring into the back of her skull, Veronica finally notices Logan's presence. She sits up a little straighter and offers him a small smile. He glances at the sunflower and then back up at Veronica's face and cocks an eyebrow. "I just thought Lilly would appreciate something other than, you know, lilies," she whispers to him and blushes. She's right. The sunflower is large and garish and Celeste will hate it and Lilly would love how tacky it looks amidst the classy but bland surroundings courtesy of Celeste. He offers her a small smile in return and silently slips his hand into his pocket and pulls out his prize to show her, a shot glass proclaiming, "I got baked in Ensenada." Veronica giggles a little and Logan hides it before Keith can see.
The ceremony starts and Veronica goes back to crying into her father's suit. Logan almost wishes he had sat somewhere else. He saw Dick and a couple other people from school but no one he really wants to be around right now. He wishes he was in the bathroom getting drunk. It would be a better tribute to Lilly, but she would probably haunt him if he skipped anything dedicated entirely to her. He loved her but he's honestly not sure he could handle seeing her again. Getting drunk is not the best idea. He promised Mr. Kane and Celeste that he would be a pallbearer. He still doesn't know what he was thinking when he did that. He doesn't think he can handle the weight of the coffin right now, but Celeste's brothers are surprisingly burly fellows (and really who would have expected someone has reserved as Celeste to come from such a large family?) so he tries not to panic. Instead he focuses on the instructions that Celeste gave him but his brain is fuzzy and doesn't seem to be working properly. He can't remember what he is supposed to do and its getting a bit difficult to breathe.
Then someone is pulling him by the elbow and guiding him out of the pew and when his brain comes back into focus he's standing in an empty hallway and Mr. Mars is asking him if he's ok. He nods slightly but Mr. Mars insists that he sit on the floor with his head between his knees until his color returns to normal. Logan does as he's told because he feels bad that he's dragged Keith away from Veronica and embarrassed by the whole thing. Logan stammers an apology and asks to go back in because he really doesn't want to mess up his duties as a pallbearer. Keith frowns but helps him up and escorts him back inside. A hand on his shoulder indicates that Keith wants him to sit by the outside edge of the pew and then Keith sits down right next to him. Veronica scoots back up against her father and gazes across Keith's chest with wide eyes. She can't believe that Logan almost fainted, or at least she thinks he did. Keith can't believe anyone would let their sixteen year old kid go to his girlfriend's funeral by himself.
Logan doesn't quite manage to suppress the grunt of pain as he straightens after lowering the casket, but no one pays any attention to him. The burial service ends and Veronica deposits her sunflower with the rest of the flowers and quietly asks him where the shot glass is. He informs her that it's next to the coffin, and is graced with a small, but sad, smile. Keith is giving the Kanes his condolences and Logan makes his way over to them to do the same, Veronica trailing behind him.
He gives the Kanes his parents' apologies but it leaves a bitter taste on his toungue, because he know they made little to no effort to be here, despite claiming the Kanes as friends. He tries to share a knowing look with Duncan but Duncan stares right through him as if doesn't even realize anyone is there. He tries to speak to Duncan but Duncan doesn't respond and Celeste all but shoos him away, while Jake starts to lead his best friend towards the waiting limo.
Logan is surprised to see that Veronica and Keith are still hanging around, but quickly realizes that Mr. Mars is waiting to see if he needs a ride home. But just as he starts to head towards them, another limo pulls up and Aaron Echolls steps out. It seems that the distress of his friends could not lure him to the funeral, but the paparazzi kept back by Kane security were enough to entice him into at least making an appearance. Logan looks back at the Marses and Keith waves slightly before leading Veronica away. Logan wants to run after them and ask if he can go home with them, but doesn't.
He momentarily entertains the idea of sneaking off somehow and starts to look for a back way out of the cemetery, not blocked by photographers. To his surprise he spots Weevil sitting several feet away, at a different grave site, but instead of looking at the grave in front of him he is staring intently at Lilly's and the expression on his face is more than curiosity. Logan turns away before Weevil sees him looking, and walks stiffly towards his father. Looks like Lilly had the leader of the local biker gang too, she certainly liked variety.
Author: ajeanne05
Pairing/Character: Logan
Word Count: 1,467
Rating: PG-13
Summary: AU fic. What if Logan had suspected Aaron of killing Lilly all along?
Spoilers: Season 1
Warnings: mild language
Disclaimer: Not my property.
Earlier Sections: 1 2
Logan strides slowly forward trying not to visibly limp. The sun is painfully bright and he's not sure whether he's pissed that the weather is mockingly nice today (Lilly would have spent a least part of the day sunbathing in a delightfully skimpy bikini) or whether he finds it fitting because Lilly burned just as bright. Either way, he's thankful for the excuse to wear sunglasses. He has a hell of a hangover and he's pretty sure he looks like complete shit.
Logan enters the church and blinks as his eyes adjust to the dimmer light, but he doesn't remove his shades. He looks around feeling a little lost. He wants to sit with the Kanes but he's not family, not really. His parents backed out of coming at the last minute. Lynn was in bed nursing a hangover of her own and Aaron had gotten a call from his publicist. Of course, the official story is that Lynn caught a particularly nasty strain of the flu and that Aaron was home caring for her. Not that Logan wants them there, although he wouldn't have minded too much if his mother came. During his second scan of the room he spots a glimpse of gold poking out from the crook of a man's elbow, Veronica.
All Logan can see of her is the crown of her head, but he can somehow tell she's crying. He wonders if it's ok for him to sit with her. He has not spoken to Veronica since before... before he left for TJ. He has not spoken to either Duncan or Veronica, actually. Logan had tried calling Duncan a few times but Celeste wouldn't put him on the phone and Duncan did not call back. Logan had received a couple calls from Veronica but he didn't answer them. He meant to call her back but, well, he was too much of a pussy. The thought of listening to the young blonde's tears and anguish when he couldn't do anything to make it better terrified him. This wasn't something he could fix by threatening her bully or slipping a new CD into her bag.
Someone squeezes past him and he realizes that he's still standing in the doorway. He hesitantly approaches Veronica and her father and sits in the pew a few feet from them. He can now see that Veronica is not only crying into Keith's suit but is clutching a sunflower. He wants to question her but can not seem to make any noise so he just studies her and hopes that she notices him soon. Logan loved to tease her about her tiny stature but she had never seemed quite so small to him before. She was shrunken with grief and fear and curled up, half in her father's lap, looking much too young and fragile.
Keith had glanced at Logan when he slid into the pew and Logan involuntarily stiffened. Being around Keith had always made him a tad nervous and being forced to see Keith as Sheriff Mars, not just Veronica's father, was not helping. Logan half expected Keith to tell him to sit somewhere else but he merely turned his attention back to his daughter. Lianne was nowhere in sight. Maybe she was suffering from the same flu strain as Lynn.
Feeling the eyes boring into the back of her skull, Veronica finally notices Logan's presence. She sits up a little straighter and offers him a small smile. He glances at the sunflower and then back up at Veronica's face and cocks an eyebrow. "I just thought Lilly would appreciate something other than, you know, lilies," she whispers to him and blushes. She's right. The sunflower is large and garish and Celeste will hate it and Lilly would love how tacky it looks amidst the classy but bland surroundings courtesy of Celeste. He offers her a small smile in return and silently slips his hand into his pocket and pulls out his prize to show her, a shot glass proclaiming, "I got baked in Ensenada." Veronica giggles a little and Logan hides it before Keith can see.
The ceremony starts and Veronica goes back to crying into her father's suit. Logan almost wishes he had sat somewhere else. He saw Dick and a couple other people from school but no one he really wants to be around right now. He wishes he was in the bathroom getting drunk. It would be a better tribute to Lilly, but she would probably haunt him if he skipped anything dedicated entirely to her. He loved her but he's honestly not sure he could handle seeing her again. Getting drunk is not the best idea. He promised Mr. Kane and Celeste that he would be a pallbearer. He still doesn't know what he was thinking when he did that. He doesn't think he can handle the weight of the coffin right now, but Celeste's brothers are surprisingly burly fellows (and really who would have expected someone has reserved as Celeste to come from such a large family?) so he tries not to panic. Instead he focuses on the instructions that Celeste gave him but his brain is fuzzy and doesn't seem to be working properly. He can't remember what he is supposed to do and its getting a bit difficult to breathe.
Then someone is pulling him by the elbow and guiding him out of the pew and when his brain comes back into focus he's standing in an empty hallway and Mr. Mars is asking him if he's ok. He nods slightly but Mr. Mars insists that he sit on the floor with his head between his knees until his color returns to normal. Logan does as he's told because he feels bad that he's dragged Keith away from Veronica and embarrassed by the whole thing. Logan stammers an apology and asks to go back in because he really doesn't want to mess up his duties as a pallbearer. Keith frowns but helps him up and escorts him back inside. A hand on his shoulder indicates that Keith wants him to sit by the outside edge of the pew and then Keith sits down right next to him. Veronica scoots back up against her father and gazes across Keith's chest with wide eyes. She can't believe that Logan almost fainted, or at least she thinks he did. Keith can't believe anyone would let their sixteen year old kid go to his girlfriend's funeral by himself.
Logan doesn't quite manage to suppress the grunt of pain as he straightens after lowering the casket, but no one pays any attention to him. The burial service ends and Veronica deposits her sunflower with the rest of the flowers and quietly asks him where the shot glass is. He informs her that it's next to the coffin, and is graced with a small, but sad, smile. Keith is giving the Kanes his condolences and Logan makes his way over to them to do the same, Veronica trailing behind him.
He gives the Kanes his parents' apologies but it leaves a bitter taste on his toungue, because he know they made little to no effort to be here, despite claiming the Kanes as friends. He tries to share a knowing look with Duncan but Duncan stares right through him as if doesn't even realize anyone is there. He tries to speak to Duncan but Duncan doesn't respond and Celeste all but shoos him away, while Jake starts to lead his best friend towards the waiting limo.
Logan is surprised to see that Veronica and Keith are still hanging around, but quickly realizes that Mr. Mars is waiting to see if he needs a ride home. But just as he starts to head towards them, another limo pulls up and Aaron Echolls steps out. It seems that the distress of his friends could not lure him to the funeral, but the paparazzi kept back by Kane security were enough to entice him into at least making an appearance. Logan looks back at the Marses and Keith waves slightly before leading Veronica away. Logan wants to run after them and ask if he can go home with them, but doesn't.
He momentarily entertains the idea of sneaking off somehow and starts to look for a back way out of the cemetery, not blocked by photographers. To his surprise he spots Weevil sitting several feet away, at a different grave site, but instead of looking at the grave in front of him he is staring intently at Lilly's and the expression on his face is more than curiosity. Logan turns away before Weevil sees him looking, and walks stiffly towards his father. Looks like Lilly had the leader of the local biker gang too, she certainly liked variety.