Sometimes I wish I had experiences like that so I could cuddle you and tell you I know what it is and that everything will be alright. But I don't. Don't know. But I can still cuddle you. I'd cuddle you in real life if I had instant transportation to you.
I do know though what it is to love heart-shatteringly. What it is to crush on someone for years. And I'm not talking about the love of my life right now. There was one before him. He did know of my feelings though, and we weren't friends. And it was a bitter end to me, when I finally ended everything from my side. But I still cherish that love. It was what taught my heart what it is to love, unwaveringly, hopelessly maybe, but strongly. Just how my heart loves right now, but this time it's much much more.
I won't tell you to go and tell this guy. I won't tell you everything will be ok and you will find new love. Because I can't know it. But I will tell you to follow your heart. It might be bitter, hurt you even more or make your life happier. I hope it's the latter.
Sometimes I try and convince myself that he returned my feelings, I mean, Hell, He asked me out 3 times, and after everything he was still my friend. But that little obnoxious voice of doubt bites me whenever I entertain the thought.
And what gets me the most is that he’s the most comfortable person I’ve ever been around. I mean, sure, I’m pretty free with my love, but with ‘Joe’… we could fall asleep curled up together on a bus seat. Hold hands. Share headphones. I could come up behind him and wrap my arms around his neck without him taking any of it too far.
I’m not like that with anyone else. Anyone else would take things too far for me, and it hurts to know I passed him up when I had the opportunity.
Velvy, my love, you are a wonderful, beautiful, sweet, smart, funny woman and you deserve all the happiness in the world.
Right now I know that this hurts a lot, that it's an ache that feels unending, but this will not last for ever. I cannot tell you that I know how this feels, but I can tell you that everything gets better with time and that eventually this ache will dissipate.
In the meantime know that you have people who love you and are here for you no mater what. <3
I know love, and thank you, It really means a lot. It’s just me looking at the past and wishing I had it back. We all have regrets and shit we wish we could have done differently.
He’s just the one thing I really wish I could have done right. He’s the guy you can never find twice, and frankly, I miss him. More than I would have expected.
I know a lot of people will say that everything happens for a reason, and if we’re meant to have a second chance at it, it’ll come. But really? I kind of feel like my one chance came and went.
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I do know though what it is to love heart-shatteringly. What it is to crush on someone for years. And I'm not talking about the love of my life right now. There was one before him. He did know of my feelings though, and we weren't friends. And it was a bitter end to me, when I finally ended everything from my side. But I still cherish that love. It was what taught my heart what it is to love, unwaveringly, hopelessly maybe, but strongly. Just how my heart loves right now, but this time it's much much more.
I won't tell you to go and tell this guy. I won't tell you everything will be ok and you will find new love. Because I can't know it. But I will tell you to follow your heart. It might be bitter, hurt you even more or make your life happier. I hope it's the latter.
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Sometimes I try and convince myself that he returned my feelings, I mean, Hell, He asked me out 3 times, and after everything he was still my friend. But that little obnoxious voice of doubt bites me whenever I entertain the thought.
And what gets me the most is that he’s the most comfortable person I’ve ever been around. I mean, sure, I’m pretty free with my love, but with ‘Joe’… we could fall asleep curled up together on a bus seat. Hold hands. Share headphones. I could come up behind him and wrap my arms around his neck without him taking any of it too far.
I’m not like that with anyone else. Anyone else would take things too far for me, and it hurts to know I passed him up when I had the opportunity.
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Right now I know that this hurts a lot, that it's an ache that feels unending, but this will not last for ever. I cannot tell you that I know how this feels, but I can tell you that everything gets better with time and that eventually this ache will dissipate.
In the meantime know that you have people who love you and are here for you no mater what. <3
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He’s just the one thing I really wish I could have done right. He’s the guy you can never find twice, and frankly, I miss him. More than I would have expected.
I know a lot of people will say that everything happens for a reason, and if we’re meant to have a second chance at it, it’ll come. But really? I kind of feel like my one chance came and went.
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