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[velellavelella]

Every morning I looked out of the window and gazed happily at it. Even if I had no where to go, I followed this ritual. It was mine - I paid for it. It was the only thing I owned. I was proud of it. I don't really even have a savings account- But I always had the knowledge that it allowed me get to where I needed to go - to make more money, or

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[octal]

Sucks :( I hope your mom is ok.

It sounds like the insurance stuff will be a mess but you should ultimately get paid for it. Getting a lawyer is a good idea.

[velellavelella]

Thanks. I hope she'll feel better soon too. She's been going to a chiropractor even though she hates adjustments and having her back touched.

It will be a mess. And the lawyer will have to deal with it, because I don't want to speak to the insurance agents at all. They finally started calling after a week.

[quirkyfemme]

I am glad your mom is okay.

I also know that losing a car is very very sad. Hang in there.

[velellavelella]

I know, I keep telling myself it was just a machine, and that it's really all going to be okay - and that I can't change anything by being sad. It's weird how an object became such a friend. You invest so much time and money into keeping them happy and running well - and the way they perform for years seems to be a measure of the kind of person I'd like to be anyway...maybe not that I am. But I'd like to be responsible...and I thought my car forced me to be that person. Oh well, I'll just have to do without it.

[quirkyfemme]

Well, you aren't responsible for its ultimate demise. Cars die..
But rest assured that there will be a new car or scooter or bike in its place that will be equally treasured.

Now I don't feel as bad for getting panicky when someone drives my Lola.

[_elle_]

Glad to hear Mom is healing.
Sadly, Perry is dead and you have to mourn him. He was and wasn't just a machine. It's okay to mourn him. Go through the grieving process.
You can love something that doesn't love you back and be very sad when that something goes away. It doesn't minimize the other loves in your life or the other things in your life that are going great or that you are thankful for.
:(

[velellavelella]

Thanks Elle. I'm currently freaking out because the insurance stuff is a nightmare, I can't get a hold of the lawyer, and my car is going to have accumulated 1000 dollars worth of charges by Monday - the day of the play date with Lawyer Kaplan.

[velellavelella]

But maybe I can get away for the weekend...I have to see how mike's surgery goes - and maybe having some fun will make it all a bit better.