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[trnstlntcsm]

 First off, I want to apologize if this post isn't what's supposed to be here, I read through the memories but I don't think I found anything like this.
To keep it short, I've been a vegan since October after being a vegetarian for 3 years. I'm also currently relapsing and I'm back into my AN-BP behaviors (Anorexia Nervosa Binge eating/Purging). A

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[i_hate_music]

Your eating disorder is not your choice, so when you non-vegan things in a binge, it is not your choice. Being Vegan means consuming as little animal products as possible in your life, but this is a thing where you have no control over.
This is what I try to tell myself, too.

I am bulimic and in recovery now for the past... 3 weeks, I think. When I binge at home I simply dont have anything that isnt Vegan, but when I'd been restricting for quite some time and would end up shopping for binge food it would always be non-vegan. There just isn't as much ready-made yucky unhealthy vegan food out there, which in all other cases is a good thing!

[the_antique]

going vegan basically solved all of my ed problems - i couldn't binge on my comfort foods anymore. i relapsed once with chocolate (~150grams), but i still considered myself vegan the whole time. it's just a slip up, don't be too hard on yourself. if possible, keep only vegan foods in the house, and if you feel ready, get help from a counsellor to manage your ed.

[toodlepipsky]

A month ago I was exactly where you are. It's a struggle and I still get into semi-binge mode after doing the grocery shopping (!). The fact that you've recognised your problem and wish to solve it is a huge step forward. Like many people said here, it wasn't really your choice, you're still vegan!

A tip that helped me a great deal - B vitamins complex with vitamin C. B vitamins are very important against depression and vitamin C is a general strengthner. Also, if you're taking B12 supplements or a lot of B12 enriched foods, it might disrupt the absorbtion of other B vitamins. After I started taking a B complex it just felt like I was going back to being myself again.

Good luck!

[trnstlntcsm]

Thanks for the reply, I did get a lot of vitamins recently hoping that would help with my nutrition, I'll be trying out some B vitamins with vitamin C!

[victoria7]

To me, it feels like there's a little switch in my head and if I get too restrictive, then the switch gets thrown and --ta da-- disordered eating. I've been in recovery for over 14 years and that switch still gets thrown occasionally. My first priority is always non-disordered eating. Even if I have to eat something non-vegan (which I occasionally have to do to

[lorcas_novena]

I've done that in the past. It's inherent in the nature of binging that you don't have time to read the back of the pack. You just throw everything down your neck as quickly as you can. It'd be crass to say 'don't keep non vegan binge food in the house', coz I know it's not that simple when you go out on a mission you buy binge food.

I must say, being vegan has been a massive help for me with binging because, just by the nature of my vegan diet, I have fewer 'trigger foods' in the house.

Of course you're still vegan, just a vegan who had a slip up, please don't beat yourself up about it and compound the guilt of binging.

[trnstlntcsm]

Thanks for replying, "please don't beat yourself up about it and compound the guilt of binging.", really helped me be able to look past it. Thinking about not relating it with binging made it easier to deal with/think about.