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[vaysha]

Ryan is dying. He was the first man other than my brother who I felt loved me. I have my suspicions at this point in my life that it was puppy love but he was my boyfriend through five of the most pivotal years in my youth and during much of that time he was an anchor for me. I wonder if he knows it?

I'd been through so much- 42 surgeries between 2

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[halfmoon_mollie]

I read this.

[vaysha]

thank you, friend.

[egg_shell]

Very sad to think he'll be gone. The things that fall away from us as we go along... Your writing about him is beautiful.

[vaysha]

yes, the things that fall away from us. It is a process of subtraction as we get older. Thank you, friend.

[newwaytowrite]

I am glad you had this person in your life when you most likely needed it and how it always remain a slice of your soul.

[vaysha]

me too, thank you. I hope I get to tell him that.

[thoughtsbykat]

I'm glad that you had a friend like Ryan. It's sad that he will be gone.

[valancystirling]

That is so beautiful, and sad. What stops you from reaching out to him, just saying those things? Will you regret not saying them?

[vaysha]

I have let people we are close to know I would love to speak with him and put the ball in his court to reach out if he wishes. I am not sure his wife would appreciate it or what is comfort level is with me being in touch. I hope he will reach out even if just through his sister saying I could write an email so we can both say goodbye and I can thank him.