Sink Beneath the Sun
So I committed fic. My first ever. And I was a weeble about whether to post it here as well as at turps33's LJ, but I'm all perfectionisty and stuff and wanted to change a couple of things. So.
Title: Sink Beneath the Sun
Rating: Gen
Stuff: My first ever piece of fannish writing. For Terri. With thanks to woolly_socks for wibble-containment and beta.
Disclaimer: Truth? Yeah, no. Inside my head only.
There’s a roar of fifty thousand voices shining in Chris’ head. It’s the way it feels, like he’s broadcasting something bigger and stronger than he’s capable of.
When Chris was young he used to wait and wait at the top of the school steps on cloudy days before running home from junior school. Tim Dimarco sneered that Chris was afraid of getting hammered by Mikey Harris. He wasn’t. Madison Macguire giggled to her friends that Chris didn’t have a raincoat so he had to try and run faster than the rain. He didn’t have a coat, but that wasn’t what he was doing. Mrs Browning asked him once if he had to hurry home to help his mom with his sisters. He did, but that wasn’t why he ran.
It was the light.
On cloudy days sometimes the sun would break through the clouds. It would be shining and golden and reach for the ground. It was beautiful.
It was terrifying.
Chris knew that the rays of light were God’s fingers. And if God wanted you, he’d surely get you. And being touched by God; if you were poor and had hand me down clothes and talked back to Pastor O’Reilly because you didn’t understand why Eve got punished for eating the apple even though it was Satan’s fault really; meant that you’d be dead and going to hell quicker than the Pastor could clip you round the ear.
So Chris ran home from school on cloudy days. Just in case. He wasn’t really worried. Not really. Not so as he’d bother asking his mom about it. But just enough that he arrived home breathless and panting.
That Thursday afternoon he’d been held back. Mrs Browning wanted him to think about getting involved in choir and Chris’d been buzzing with it, enough that he’d not noticed the clouds scudding together as he walked home. By the time he walked over the pitcher’s mound two blocks from home Chris was just beginning to realize how dark it was getting and as he walked out from under the big maple next to Mikey Harris’ house the sudden warmth of the sun on his back was enough to make him stop. Still. Dead still.
He should have known.
It took every ounce of stubborn he had to turn around. Every molecule of backbone to look up and see the stream of light stealing through the grey.
Chris closed his eyes. He waited.
It was warm. His left hand tingled where it hung outside the sun’s warmth.
Nothing happened.
He heard a car start across the street. Someone had just mown their lawn and the fresh smell was clear in his nostrils.
He took a breath. Then another. The sun was red behind his eyelids and yellow dots swam lazily through his fright.
Slowly Chris opened his eyes.
It was beautiful. Everything around him was grey and cooling with the early evening. But he was lit up. Like someone had made a candle out of him and put it at the top of the tree. Shining. He was shining. Warm, shining and alive.
Ever since then he’s been able to switch it on, like a light. Like a radio. Broadcasting the joy and freedom he felt in that moment. The other guys get it. Justin has it in spades. Together the signal from the five of them could probably reach past the sun.
But it’s JC he thinks of whenever he remembers that moment. Just JC. Because sometimes, when JC looks at him, there are flecks in JC’s eyes that seem brighter than any shaft of light.
Title: Sink Beneath the Sun
Rating: Gen
Stuff: My first ever piece of fannish writing. For Terri. With thanks to woolly_socks for wibble-containment and beta.
Disclaimer: Truth? Yeah, no. Inside my head only.
There’s a roar of fifty thousand voices shining in Chris’ head. It’s the way it feels, like he’s broadcasting something bigger and stronger than he’s capable of.
When Chris was young he used to wait and wait at the top of the school steps on cloudy days before running home from junior school. Tim Dimarco sneered that Chris was afraid of getting hammered by Mikey Harris. He wasn’t. Madison Macguire giggled to her friends that Chris didn’t have a raincoat so he had to try and run faster than the rain. He didn’t have a coat, but that wasn’t what he was doing. Mrs Browning asked him once if he had to hurry home to help his mom with his sisters. He did, but that wasn’t why he ran.
It was the light.
On cloudy days sometimes the sun would break through the clouds. It would be shining and golden and reach for the ground. It was beautiful.
It was terrifying.
Chris knew that the rays of light were God’s fingers. And if God wanted you, he’d surely get you. And being touched by God; if you were poor and had hand me down clothes and talked back to Pastor O’Reilly because you didn’t understand why Eve got punished for eating the apple even though it was Satan’s fault really; meant that you’d be dead and going to hell quicker than the Pastor could clip you round the ear.
So Chris ran home from school on cloudy days. Just in case. He wasn’t really worried. Not really. Not so as he’d bother asking his mom about it. But just enough that he arrived home breathless and panting.
That Thursday afternoon he’d been held back. Mrs Browning wanted him to think about getting involved in choir and Chris’d been buzzing with it, enough that he’d not noticed the clouds scudding together as he walked home. By the time he walked over the pitcher’s mound two blocks from home Chris was just beginning to realize how dark it was getting and as he walked out from under the big maple next to Mikey Harris’ house the sudden warmth of the sun on his back was enough to make him stop. Still. Dead still.
He should have known.
It took every ounce of stubborn he had to turn around. Every molecule of backbone to look up and see the stream of light stealing through the grey.
Chris closed his eyes. He waited.
It was warm. His left hand tingled where it hung outside the sun’s warmth.
Nothing happened.
He heard a car start across the street. Someone had just mown their lawn and the fresh smell was clear in his nostrils.
He took a breath. Then another. The sun was red behind his eyelids and yellow dots swam lazily through his fright.
Slowly Chris opened his eyes.
It was beautiful. Everything around him was grey and cooling with the early evening. But he was lit up. Like someone had made a candle out of him and put it at the top of the tree. Shining. He was shining. Warm, shining and alive.
Ever since then he’s been able to switch it on, like a light. Like a radio. Broadcasting the joy and freedom he felt in that moment. The other guys get it. Justin has it in spades. Together the signal from the five of them could probably reach past the sun.
But it’s JC he thinks of whenever he remembers that moment. Just JC. Because sometimes, when JC looks at him, there are flecks in JC’s eyes that seem brighter than any shaft of light.