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[faygot]

Characters: faygot and kamen_luthier
Location: Two guys, one bed.
Time: Saturday night, roughly
Style: Butterfly stroke
Status Closed

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[alternialuthier]

Wataru pressed gently on the back of Gamzee's shoulder to keep him from turning around, continuing to brush his hair gently. He squeezed the shoulder under his palm reassuringly, smiling a little.

"Of course. ...is something wrong?"

[magnetimous]

"Nah, just." Gamzee sought the words for a moment. This was not exactly a topic he was very familiar with. Sure there had been that little worshippy puppy crush on Rapunzel, but he wasn't even sure if that was exactly the same thing as this. "How... does it like feel to be all flushed for someone?"

[alternialuthier]

"Oh."

Wataru looked deeply thoughtful, and was grateful that Gamzee couldn't see his face as he dropped his head and closed his eyes, his brow furrowing. His voice was slow, but steady.

"Well... I've only had a crush on one person. But she made me feel safe, and happy. And strong, like I could do anything if she was near me. But it was scary, too, sometimes, because I really wanted her to like me just as much as I liked her, and it made me really nervous. So I think it was all of those things all rolled into one. I couldn't stand it when she was hurting, though. And when she smiled, it was the best thing in the world."

Wataru had to stop for a moment, his hands almost but not quite faltering in Gamzee's hair as he tries to keep his throat from tightening. It's a long moment before he can speak again.

"Does that help?"

[magnetimous]

Oh. That actually only served to confuse him more. Sure he felt safe and happy around Equius, but when didn't he? And strong... he actually felt the opposite of strong next to him. It was kinda hard to feel strong next to the guy who crushed robots for a hobby. Scary? Nervous? Nag, he actually felt the complete opposite of that. Equius was real comforting. Like he didn't have to worry about shit around him. Like no matter what he did, Equius'd be there anyway.

... Making him smile was the best thing though. So that was right.

His brows furrowed more as he thought it over, and really, maybe he should just tell Wataru what had happened. That might help a little. Or not. But either way, it was not something that he needed to keep a secret from his moirail.

"Equius kissed me."