I found this in my box and thought I'd put it up. I dunno, maybe I'll take it down tomorrow morning

[vash1228]

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[xanthvamp]

I didn't know what happened to me was rape till later - I just went along with it. I'm still too, I dunno, scared to tell him that to his face (that that I'll ever see him again, hopefully).

I've since told close friends... but it's weird and hard.

[ladysilverlark]

*HUGS* What I told B goes for you too. If you ever need some one to talk to call me.

[xanthvamp]

*nods* Thank you.

[vash1228]

That's pretty normal. I think it's ... I don't know. I think it's worse when it's no black and white, you know? When you're not sure that it would be obvious to everyone else because it wasn't obvious to you :(
Do you want me to delete your comment since this post isn't locked?

[ladysilverlark]

*hugs* I was not aware of this rumor. I am sorry you had to go through some thing like this. You are right it does victimized the victims of rape, but it also victimized you. I know you all ready know this or at least I hope you do. If you ever need some one to talk to call me. Even at 3 AM. *HUGS*

[vash1228]

Thanks. It wasn't in your circles at all, at least at the time.
The reasons I think it was upsetting to me ... being hated or treated poorly by relitive strangers or really any group isn't...it's upsetting but not something that really got to me. It was only things that relate to the fact that it was him that made it ...
I guess what I'm saying is any reason that I personally felt violated by it aren't in this post, if that makes any sense.
Although someone you care about believing something like this rumor really can make a girl wonder what's wrong with her physically or sexually, I guess, now that I think about it.
Anyway, I'm just rambling. Thank you very much. I really appreciate your kindness.
You too, BTW. Especially at a time like this. {{{{{{{}}}}}}}

[ladysilverlark]

Wha both of us are doing is being good friends.