Aftermath
I feel like such a wimp. I tried to go to work today. I made it an hour. I had to come home because my nerves were just to strung out. I threw up twice and broke out in hives so bad that I am scratching bloody spots on my hands and legs
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How dare you be so hard on yourself! You went through a very scary life-threatening event and you think you can just push yourself into forgetting.
Shame on you.
Take some time, love. Your spicy brains need time to deal with what has happened. A couple of days is just not enough time.
How about a nice cool out by the pool? Somehow I think you need to a relax a bit.
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I try to tell myself that I do not have to take care of everyone else before myself, that I do matter. But after being raised to take responsibilty for all that goes wrong its hard not to contnue that.
And no matter how much I tell myself not to feel guilty about needing time and no matter how much everyone else tells me the same thing I still do.
I took an oatmeal bath and some Benadryl so the itching is calmed downed now. I just have two bloody spots on my hands so not as bad as it has been before.
I love you very much QC for telling me again what I need to be told over and over: that I cannot control everything and that it is okay to take time and allow myself to heal. I am trying.
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Keep telling yourself that, love. I know what that feels like all too well. As you can guess, I am just slightly controlling. *L* However, we have to keep telling ourselves that stuff. We cannot just give ourselves away to the world. That is unfair to us and the ones who love us.
I'm glad you are taking care of yourself. I hope you're feeling better.
I love you dearly for all the usual reasons. ;) Let me know if and when I can yell at you again. ;)
* huggles *
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Skishes and more,
~Histy~
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