Lonely

[vampyrusgirl]

So last night John was out for about 5 hours or so at his Mage game. When he came home, I ran into his arms, sobbing. Never have I felt so lonely when he was gone, even when he was in Germany for almost two weeks. Sure, I missed him, but I wasn't really alone at home - I always had Nick. I always had another important presence, someone else that I

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[editswlonghair]

Last night broke my heart. I wish there were something more I could do. :(

[teejhead]

I think people generally get overwhelmed with a sense of loss with they least expect it (human or pet loss). I think we figure out how to brace ourselves for the big stuff, a birthday, a holiday that feeling you know you wont get when you first walk into the room. It's the little thing that sneak up on you and surprise you. It's all the little moments that you never realized you thought about someone that become painfully obvious when they are no longer there.

You know it gets easier. I think because you start to find new ways to fill the old voids. But it doesn't go away. But at some point, something happens and instead of wanting to cry or feeling so terribly alone, it becomes a comforting feeling. Instead of a painful reminder of what is missing, it is a warm feeling reminding you how lucky you were for what you had. Doesn't make you miss them any less, but it can make you feel like they aren't totally away from you.

I'm sorry about your kitty.

[urnesha]

*many hugs darling*

[marmota_monax]

Poor dear Michelle. On top of everything, it's a hard time of year to be feeling sad and lonely. Spring will bring distance from a sad winter, warm days, feelings of optimism, perhaps a new furry friend. In the meantime, keep up the chocolate intake. It will help. I say that as a woman and a friend.

[ultra_lilac]

*hug* poor old you!
When I moved into my first flat and was without pets for the first time ever the quiet used to drive me crazy. It's even worse when an animal that was part of your family has died.
You know you're always welcome to come along when John is gaming at our place, right?
We have books and spare computers and things to do if you get bored!

[editswlonghair]

Not to mention a crazy dog. Never underestimate the power of surrogate dog time. It is a balm for the soul. ;)

[vampyrusgirl]

Thanks for the offer - maybe next time. :)