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Title: 31 Trials from Hell
Rating: 18
This chapter: 18
Main Characters from: Gacktjob, Malice Mizer
Main Pairing: Gackt X Kami
Summary: When his lover dies Gackt will do anything it takes to get him back even if it means following him into the depths of hell.
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Chapter 20: Resparking Love
Kami was stunned, Gackt was his lover? He'd actually had a man as beautiful as the samurai in his life? It didn't make sense and he was still trying to deal with this revelation when Gackt came in looking like a man on a mission.
“How much did you hear?” Gackt questioned catching Kami by the window wishing he'd remembered just how hard it was to keep anything private from him. Short of surprise gifts he'd been allowed no secrets but had received the same level of honesty from Kami in return.
“Just the last bit, I was checking you were alright.” Kami explained sensing he wasn't in trouble he continued. “Something about him wanting to attack your lover?”
“Oh yes, don't worry about him.” Gackt responded. “He's only making promises he can't keep.”
“But who is your lover? Shouldn't you be trying to protect him?” Kami demanded.
“Him? How do you know it's a man?” Gackt asked warily.
“I don't know.” Kami stammered before finding the perfect cover. “Just I had a feeling you were flirting with me a few times tonight so I just assumed.”
“My lover is fine, he's protected.” Gackt reassured Kami who couldn't help but smile at hearing this. Gackt was going to protect him? That was what he meant right, if he was Gackt's boyfriend anyway.
“By your cavalry?” Kami asked.
“Something like that.” Gackt agreed. “Don't worry about Közi, though if you're ever alone with him whatever you do don't listen to what he has to say and don't make a deal. He's a demon who will lie and manipulate you straight to hell if you're not careful.”
“Maybe you should stay and protect me, if you're lover is safe.” Kami suggested placing his hand on Gackt's arm and smiling up at him. “There's a chance I heard more than I let on.”
“Kami?” Gackt questioned. “How much more?”
“Come, teach me how to play piano.” Kami begged taking Gackt by the hand and leading him back across the room.
“Kami, how much.” Gackt demanded but his lover only sat down and began to play one of the simple tunes he knew. “You need to bend your fingers more.” Gackt informed Kami after a few more failed attempts to get the man to admit to what he'd heard.
“You're hear to say goodbye aren't you?” Kami asked a few minutes later. “It must hurt you so much that I can't remember you.”
“You could remember me though, if you asked for your memories back.” Gackt suggested. “Hizaki seems like a decent man, I'm sure if you asked out of your own free will...”
“Gackt no, my memories caused me so much pain I came here.” Kami exclaimed. “I was crying when I first met him, I could barely talk and then he promised he could take my pain away. I've never looked back, I don't want to know what was ripping me apart like that.”
“Losing me. That's what hurt you so much.” Gackt tried to explain. “You had a happy life with me, we were in love and you wanted to get married but I always refused.”
“Why would you refuse?” Kami asked. “If we were as in love as you thought we were.”
“Because, I can't believe I have to explain this again, my parents are deeply religious. They could barely handle us living together, if we got married they'd have disowned me.” Gackt explained.
“And that was enough to stop you marrying me?” Kami demanded.
“I don't know, I think there must have been a part of me that felt that if we just waited, if they saw how happy we were, they might change their minds? I was a fool, I know that now. Kami I swear that I’ll marry you in a heartbeat if you asked me again. I'd even propose if you asked really nicely.”
“Oh how romantic, if you ask me I’ll find the time to buy you a ring.” Kami teased though his tone was light and Gackt knew the other had accepted his reasoning.
“We can still get married you know.” Gackt encouraged.
“I'm dead, is there any point?” Kami asked.
“You could try not being dead?” Gackt suggested.
“And go back to whatever pain faced me before? Look I know you think we were happy and in love but I barely know you. How do I know you didn't beat me or were some kind of stalker? How do I know that you're not the reason I'm dead? Maybe you cheated on me and I killed myself? And this is taking into account that what you've said so far is even true.” Kami exclaimed about to start on a second list of things that could have led him here.
“Trust me.” Gackt ordered. “That's all I ask.”
“I don't know you.” Kami reminded Gackt stopping to turn and look the samurai in the eyes. “But if it helps, I want to trust you.”
“It helps.” Gackt replied. “Especially as I'm not a crazy stalker or psycho killer who attacks his boyfriends with chainsaws if they dare glance at another man.”
“That's good to know.” Kami replied turning back to the piano and beginning to play again determined to master this piece.
“So I suppose that means you committed suicide.” Gackt teased.
“I must have.” Kami agreed. “Far more likely that you telling me the truth and my only pain was that of a broken heart.”
“Ah yes, but wasn't you're suicide caused by a broken heart?” Gackt asked.
“Well that was one of the causes but I think the primary reason was because I ran out of milk and really wanted a cup off coffee.” Kami explained.
“Understandable.” Gackt agreed moving behind Kami and wrapping his arms around him. “It's a terrible thing to run out of milk.”
“Agreed.” Kami replied feeling Gackt's hands move over his stomach and then just a single finger tease the waist band of his jeans. “Gackt? What are you doing?”
“Shhh just relax, I am your lover.” Gackt reminded him pushing long hair out of the way so his mouth could find the hollow in Kami's neck that was always so sensitive.
“I don't think...” Kami began to protest trying to pull away.
“Please don't, thinking only gets in the way.” Gackt argued licking Kami's neck as his hands began to move up his chest.
“Thinking gets in the way.” Kami agreed giving up all protests for now. If he ever doubted Gackt's claims of love they were all gone now, how else would he know just how to make him feel so good?
Trailing his hands up Kami's chest beneath the t-shirt he wore Gackt let his fingertip brush across an erect nipple smirking to himself. Ordinarily he'd tease Kami for being so easily aroused but now didn't seem like the time or place so he remained silent and bent around so he could place his mouth over his lovers kissing him gently before pressing his tongue against Kami's closed lips seeking entry that was usually granted instantly but tonight there was a pause reminding him once again that though on the outside Kami was exactly the same internally he was a stranger once more.
His tongue met Kami's curious one and he stopped himself seeking dominance letting Kami get used to his taste as he slid his hands over the familiar chest he had sworn he might never get to touch again. Part of him willed he would never have to let go, wanting nothing more than to cling to his lover forever and keep him from harm, but he knew such an occurrence was nothing but an impossible dream and settled in enjoying the moment.
Letting Kami kiss him as he saw fit Gackt moved his right hand back down Kami's body slipping his fingers beneath the belt before pulling them out and moving them back down, this time over the top of his jeans. He felt Kami's surprise in his touch as easily as the arousal beneath his fingers but when there was no protests he began to stroke gently working up a gentle rhythm meant only for pleasure and not to stimulate release.
“Gackt...” Kami protested as he tried to pull away.
“I said don't think.” Gackt scolded reclaiming the others lips again.
“But Gackt.” Kami complained pulling away. “I just wanted to tell you something.”
“Is it important?” Gackt asked.
“Just that I believe you when you say I can trust you.” Kami replied.
“Shut up now.” Gackt ordered forcing his mouth over Kami's once more though inside he was smiling. Perhaps it wouldn't be so hard to convince Kami to get his memory back? Then they'd be on the same side and Hizaki would have no choice to give him back, even if it was just temporary.
As they kissed Gackt released Kami's arousal and began to stroke it exactly as he remembered Kami loved to be touched. Every movement was deliberately executed to make Kami moan and after a few moments he moved his lips back onto Kami's neck feeling the soft vibrations against his lips as he worked Kami's length.
Kami couldn't believe how amazing this felt, couldn't believe he had asked to forget everything though if you had a memory like this and knew you'd never experience it again then maybe it was best to forget?
“I know you're close.” Gackt whispered. “I could even count you down.”
“You're just showing off.” Kami muttered ignoring Gackt as he tried his best to hold on. Everything was just so wonderful right now and he was so close to letting go. His body trembled and as he released Gackt whispered a mocking word into his ear.
“One” Gackt teased watching bemused as Kami came a split second later blushing bright red.
“It's not fair! You know all of my bodies favourite things.” Kami complained. “Let me learn yours again?”
“No, that's OK.” Gackt replied trying to ignore his arousal but finding it difficult, especially when Kami slid off the piano stool and stared up at him knelt on his knees with that false innocent expression he had carved into his memory.
“Let me help.” Kami whispered running his fingers over Gackt's crotch as he tried to figure our how best to remove the armour.
“No Kami, listen. If Közi comes back the last thing we need is for me to be caught off guard.” Gackt explained. “Please don't tempt me, I’ll only give in.”
“Is Közi that dangerous?” Kami asked feeling suspicious. The look in Gackt's eyes had been fear, understandable if his last sexual encounter had been rape.
“I think so.” Gackt replied. “Ignore my needs, it'll go away eventually.”
“Well I’ll be here if you change your mind.” Kami offered watching as Gackt walked across the room and sat staring out of the window ignoring his presence entirely as he waited for his arousal to go away by itself.
Getting up Kami sorted out his clothes and cleaned up the mess he had made before going to sit on the sofa watching Gackt's back as he thought over his options. Perhaps he should ask for his memories back? He just couldn't see how he could make a sensible choice without them and it was what Gackt wanted. Surely Hizaki could remove them again if he really didn't want to know?
More worrying was Közi and his plans. What was the demon up too? Something about Gackt being a powerful soul and wanting him in hell. Poor Gackt, being chased by such a evil man, one who had raped him as well, one who was after him. It was the first time Kami had really thought about his own safety and it began to scare him. What if he was going to be raped in the near future? He'd just hate that. About to call Gackt over in a panic the word never left his mouth as the samurai got up on his own and quietly went and sat beside him placing a hand on his thigh.
“See, I told you it would go away on it's own.” Gackt reassured him but Kami only moved closer laying his head on Gackt's shoulder finding comfort in his presence.
“Protect me from him, please.” Kami begged. “He scares me.”
“I'll protect you, I always will.” Gackt promised and Kami believed him. Gackt just didn't seem like the kind of man who couldn't keep his word.
'I trust him.' Kami realised. 'I don't even know him yet but I’d follow him to the ends off the earth.'