Always Trying... Never Succeeding (The Endless Tale of My Heart)

[vampirecola]

I always say I'm going to keep updated and post more often, and then I never do. I think I know part of why that is. When I'm in a relationship, I tend to spend more time being apart of it than talking about it online. Then, when things aren't going so well, I bottle up and keep things to myself. I don't bitch and complain about the problems my

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At a loss

[vampirecola]

You don't have to say anything. Do you think it really matters what people say, as much as it comforts, it doesn't really help. We're talking, we don't want to give this up, but she doesn't want to be with me, I'm still in limbo between homeless and couch crasher. I'm trying to find a job and not lose my car... so I'm more worried about me right now. But I don't want to lose her, and I just hope she's not stringing me along to work things out, and then breaking my heart all over again. I'm just at a loss to know what to do at this point. Try and hope it all works out, or give up and not even let the chance of me getting hurt again happen. I'm stuck. ??? Still doesn't help me hurt less now, or stop the panic attacks I'm having at increasing rates. :/